20% - Bragging
I've been introverted for almost all my life. This is just basically kinda like the story of my life of the memories I have with social interactions and everything throughout my childhood and adolescence.
I will start from my early memories I can recall. I do remember I used to live with both my mom and my dad, but then my stupid mom decided she was leaving my dad because my dad lost his job because of some economical crisis, and she took me and my brother to another city. There I spent most of my childhood rarely being able to see my dad, and living alongside my mom's sisters, basically I was raised by foids the first years of my life.
I don't recall a lot of what I did in kindergarden, but from the little I can remember, I only had one friend and I spent a lot of time quiet only hanging out with that one friend on recess. I also remember that in kindergarden my first bully was a foid who even poked my hand with a crayon once. But basically, that's all I remember from kindergarden. According to my mom, the teachers would say I was smart and everything because I solved puzzles while the other kids in kindergarden didn't. Well fast-forward to the next years on kindergarden from what I can remember, I spent a lot of time alone, and other kids would bully me, even once I got punished for bullying back one of my bullies who started it. And basically those are all the memories I have from kindergarden.
Fast forward to elementary school, I started first grade in certain school in another city where I basically was introverted most of the time. On the recesses, I'd just eat alone and just stay there living. I also remember I did get along with another boy and a foid(one of the very few times I did get along with a foid, but we were children) who sat near me. But then I left that school to move to another city, so idk what is now of these classmates I had, they were just casual friends, not best friends.
In the next elementary school I went, there I did actually have 2 good best friends. I still can recall their names(Diego & Terry). These were the only good friends I can remember. We'd always sit together on recess, and the 3 of us did get bullied in some occasions by other classmates, even in some cases by foids. I remember that my best friend, Diego, would talk to me about the cartoons we watched, and that was basically it. I could never find other friends with that same connection. After some years in that elementary school, my mom decided one day to just come back with my dad, and we left that city to move to the city where I live now. I did say goodbye to my 2 good friends, one of them had a Youtube channel which I'm still subscribed to, but he hasn't uploaded anything in 8 years. Idk what might have been of those 2 friends I had, maybe they are incels like me.
When I moved to the city I live now, I started in a new private school. This school was very strict, I became more introverted going to that school. Teachers didn't allow kids to do a lot of things, that school even forbade student from having school supplies related to anime, for some reason this school hated anime so much. So basically, I didn't make any friends on this school, I spent a lot of the time quiet, most of the days going to school without speaking. I became the quiet kid of that school, while the others would yell more, but be nagged by the teachers. I still managed to get good grades there, and when I finished elementary school, I didn't assist to the graduation.
I studied middle school in that same school, and the teachers and coordinators were even stricter in middle school. The principal of middle school was an oldass bitch who spent most of the time nagging at students. She'd nag you for even forgetting something small about the uniform. I did have good grades in middle school, but I refused socializing with other students because they were annoying fucks.I did develop some crushes on some of my foid classmates, but the middle school didn't allow students to date, so it was impossible for anyone to have a girlfriend or boyfriend because they'd punish you if they caught you having a relationship with someone. I did get in trouble in middle school for stupid things like touching foid's hair sitting in front of me(because her hair was annoying me while I wrote on my notebook), and another time because I was pretending to shoot at other students with my hands making the shape of guns. The school principal called my parents in those 2 occassions, and the school foid psychologist blamed stuff like anime and videogames for these behaviors I had. I also did get bullied in middle school too.
When the pandemic came, I even became more introverted. At first I had my classes doing anything I wanted at home, but then the fucking school administrators made all students take their classes on video meetings, and they forced everyone to turn on the cameras, they'd even force students to wear the fucking uniform in online classes. And there were school administrators on every class monitoring everything the students made on the cameras, and they'd send you messages if you did something they didn't like. But well, long story short, I finished middle school in online classes, and I passed my exams by cheating online.
Then, I started High School in online classes at first because the pandemic was still there, but in the second year of High School I had to go back to in-person classes. I also had to work in teams in some projects where I made a very few friends, who were just casual friends who I know nothing about now. I honestly thought that when I took my classes in-person in High School, I would have gotten a girlfriend, but I never did get a girlfriend. I also didn't know about the concept of the Blackpill or about incels back in High School. I did get good grades in subjects like Math and Physics back in High School, and made some money by doing homeworks of other people. I even simped for a foid who I thought I could make my girlfriend if I helped her to cheat on her Physics exams, but she never became my girlfriend, she only gave me mixed signs and I never dared to flirt with her, she probably only used me for grades. I then finished High School at 17, and that's when I started feeling desperate that I didn't have a girlfriend, but I saw every foid having a boyfriend, and every tall Chad having a girlfriend.
I finished High School over a year ago, and entered college. I was also expecting in college to meet some foids, so I could have a girlfriend, but nothing. Foids never talk to me. I only have a few friends from my software engineering class, and those are the only people I talk to which are just casual friends. I'm so lonely lately, all the hot foids I've seen already have a boyfriend, and all their boyfriends are Chads. It's so over for me.
I will start from my early memories I can recall. I do remember I used to live with both my mom and my dad, but then my stupid mom decided she was leaving my dad because my dad lost his job because of some economical crisis, and she took me and my brother to another city. There I spent most of my childhood rarely being able to see my dad, and living alongside my mom's sisters, basically I was raised by foids the first years of my life.
I don't recall a lot of what I did in kindergarden, but from the little I can remember, I only had one friend and I spent a lot of time quiet only hanging out with that one friend on recess. I also remember that in kindergarden my first bully was a foid who even poked my hand with a crayon once. But basically, that's all I remember from kindergarden. According to my mom, the teachers would say I was smart and everything because I solved puzzles while the other kids in kindergarden didn't. Well fast-forward to the next years on kindergarden from what I can remember, I spent a lot of time alone, and other kids would bully me, even once I got punished for bullying back one of my bullies who started it. And basically those are all the memories I have from kindergarden.
Fast forward to elementary school, I started first grade in certain school in another city where I basically was introverted most of the time. On the recesses, I'd just eat alone and just stay there living. I also remember I did get along with another boy and a foid(one of the very few times I did get along with a foid, but we were children) who sat near me. But then I left that school to move to another city, so idk what is now of these classmates I had, they were just casual friends, not best friends.
In the next elementary school I went, there I did actually have 2 good best friends. I still can recall their names(Diego & Terry). These were the only good friends I can remember. We'd always sit together on recess, and the 3 of us did get bullied in some occasions by other classmates, even in some cases by foids. I remember that my best friend, Diego, would talk to me about the cartoons we watched, and that was basically it. I could never find other friends with that same connection. After some years in that elementary school, my mom decided one day to just come back with my dad, and we left that city to move to the city where I live now. I did say goodbye to my 2 good friends, one of them had a Youtube channel which I'm still subscribed to, but he hasn't uploaded anything in 8 years. Idk what might have been of those 2 friends I had, maybe they are incels like me.
When I moved to the city I live now, I started in a new private school. This school was very strict, I became more introverted going to that school. Teachers didn't allow kids to do a lot of things, that school even forbade student from having school supplies related to anime, for some reason this school hated anime so much. So basically, I didn't make any friends on this school, I spent a lot of the time quiet, most of the days going to school without speaking. I became the quiet kid of that school, while the others would yell more, but be nagged by the teachers. I still managed to get good grades there, and when I finished elementary school, I didn't assist to the graduation.
I studied middle school in that same school, and the teachers and coordinators were even stricter in middle school. The principal of middle school was an oldass bitch who spent most of the time nagging at students. She'd nag you for even forgetting something small about the uniform. I did have good grades in middle school, but I refused socializing with other students because they were annoying fucks.I did develop some crushes on some of my foid classmates, but the middle school didn't allow students to date, so it was impossible for anyone to have a girlfriend or boyfriend because they'd punish you if they caught you having a relationship with someone. I did get in trouble in middle school for stupid things like touching foid's hair sitting in front of me(because her hair was annoying me while I wrote on my notebook), and another time because I was pretending to shoot at other students with my hands making the shape of guns. The school principal called my parents in those 2 occassions, and the school foid psychologist blamed stuff like anime and videogames for these behaviors I had. I also did get bullied in middle school too.
When the pandemic came, I even became more introverted. At first I had my classes doing anything I wanted at home, but then the fucking school administrators made all students take their classes on video meetings, and they forced everyone to turn on the cameras, they'd even force students to wear the fucking uniform in online classes. And there were school administrators on every class monitoring everything the students made on the cameras, and they'd send you messages if you did something they didn't like. But well, long story short, I finished middle school in online classes, and I passed my exams by cheating online.
Then, I started High School in online classes at first because the pandemic was still there, but in the second year of High School I had to go back to in-person classes. I also had to work in teams in some projects where I made a very few friends, who were just casual friends who I know nothing about now. I honestly thought that when I took my classes in-person in High School, I would have gotten a girlfriend, but I never did get a girlfriend. I also didn't know about the concept of the Blackpill or about incels back in High School. I did get good grades in subjects like Math and Physics back in High School, and made some money by doing homeworks of other people. I even simped for a foid who I thought I could make my girlfriend if I helped her to cheat on her Physics exams, but she never became my girlfriend, she only gave me mixed signs and I never dared to flirt with her, she probably only used me for grades. I then finished High School at 17, and that's when I started feeling desperate that I didn't have a girlfriend, but I saw every foid having a boyfriend, and every tall Chad having a girlfriend.
I finished High School over a year ago, and entered college. I was also expecting in college to meet some foids, so I could have a girlfriend, but nothing. Foids never talk to me. I only have a few friends from my software engineering class, and those are the only people I talk to which are just casual friends. I'm so lonely lately, all the hot foids I've seen already have a boyfriend, and all their boyfriends are Chads. It's so over for me.
