The rain fucked up my power grid recently. I normally would be like "damn, can't play vidya, sucks", but recently I've been reacted differently. The blackpill is a monster that approaches slowly, sadistically, cruelly, one that you can't do anything but wait for when its claws start tearing your skin. I, with the internet, had the benefit of ignoring its presence. But that doesn't mean it's not there; I can ignore its footsteps: "tick, tack, tick, tack" as it mocks my inability to get away.
When the blindfold came off, I could only see the truth, I could think, and thinking is the most hurtful thing that I can do to myself. My father? Doesn't give a shit about me and would not shred a tear if I was in hell. My mother? Only cares about me because of morals and religions, and makes me know that implicitly. Friends? Zero. Girlfriend? I'm on an incel forum goddammit.
I'm an agnostic leaning-atheist, but for the first time in a few years, I prayed. What did I pray for, the monster leaving me alone? No, I prayed for the blindfold to come back on. I know that despite of how powerful a God could be, He is not strong enough to slay the monster.
The blackpill is fact. I feel my odds of winning the lottery five times in a row far exceed the odds of me being anyone's boyfriend, because there are odds of me winning the lottery five times, not of me getting with a girl.
When the blindfold came off, I could only see the truth, I could think, and thinking is the most hurtful thing that I can do to myself. My father? Doesn't give a shit about me and would not shred a tear if I was in hell. My mother? Only cares about me because of morals and religions, and makes me know that implicitly. Friends? Zero. Girlfriend? I'm on an incel forum goddammit.
I'm an agnostic leaning-atheist, but for the first time in a few years, I prayed. What did I pray for, the monster leaving me alone? No, I prayed for the blindfold to come back on. I know that despite of how powerful a God could be, He is not strong enough to slay the monster.
The blackpill is fact. I feel my odds of winning the lottery five times in a row far exceed the odds of me being anyone's boyfriend, because there are odds of me winning the lottery five times, not of me getting with a girl.
