Your life ending is pretty much the best thing that will ever happen to you. Your malevolent NT family members will pretend to care long enough for other people to see, but in private will be celebrate as they no longer have to deal with you. You're less than a germ to them and the moment they started getting a hint that you were different than others any positive feeling they had for you flew out the window, the minute you starting dressing, talking, acting different from the norm their primitive brains began to concoct a feeling of both fear and anger towards you. In their minds they have their "real" family, who are members of the same "tribe" as they are, and then there's you, a complete stranger who just happens to be biologically related. Your weird, alien, aspie brain can't even comprehend how important social conformity is for NTs, nor how much primitive hate and ostracism they think you deserve for deviating from it.
A lifetime of being looked down upon and treated with condescension, coldness, cruelty, ostracism, and disdain will finally be over. A loveless, lonely, shame-filled existence finally comes to a close and you won't have to be around to see how little anybody cared.
A lifetime of being looked down upon and treated with condescension, coldness, cruelty, ostracism, and disdain will finally be over. A loveless, lonely, shame-filled existence finally comes to a close and you won't have to be around to see how little anybody cared.
