I don't think there was ever a time in my life where I really worshipped whites as a ricecel. Maybe a bit in my early days of college and moving into an all white area post college. Its just kinda inevitable when the vast majority of people around you are white. You start to act and think like them without realizing it. Then over time you notice the discriminatory treatment you receive especially from white women, you become bitter over time and realize how foolish you were for adopting their discriminatory mindset (which made you have internalized racism and discriminate against others as well). I didn't realize it at the time but I started being arrogant to hispanics and other minorities. It wasn't until later that I checked myself after being so bitter and discriminated against.
White American women want men of color marginalized, enslaved, and or dead. Period. No ifs or buts or anything. Doesn't matter if you're a nigger, chink, gook, jap, spic, sandnigger, or curry. They really don't like you and want you to be in your place if they must tolerate your presence.
I know for damn certain a lot of Korean Americans and Jap Americans white worship. Its like they strive so hard to have white friends. Its actually pretty damn insane.
All in all at least I realized my foolishness and checked myself. Most Asian American women have no self awareness and worship whites blindly even well into adult life and old age.
