I have this condition where I hum, moan, chuckle and talk (nonsense) at night. What secrets might I then reveal? Once I was in a hotel with family in the same room. They said I'm taking gibberish.
Also I cannot have normal social conversations. I also stutter a lot. I will never have a girlfriend. Dragons, trolls, fairies and wizards don't exist either. It's the same category.
I feel very lonely and it won't get better. Me having a girlfriend, the chance is so small. I desire a (cute) one, but it would make no logical sense that I get one. So what I hope for is not a girlfriend -- I hope to win the lottery as that is much more realistic -- I hope that I don't want one anymore, sooner or later.