for example working, eating, taking a shower, media (tv, music, video games ect..) it's going to get much much worse, i swallowed the blackpill 4 years ago when i made it my goal to get double jaw surgery, i eventually did & surprise surprise i'm still a 2.5/10. there is absolutely no hope at all for me, i wake up feeling like i'm coming down from a week long meth binge, it's a feeling of absolute despair & the realization that i'm in my 20's and nothing is ever going to change. it's like god is trying to manipulate me into killing myself so i will go to hell or something & suffer more, everyday is just complete utter shit. nothing makes me happy, i cant remember the last time i felt euphoria, i wish there was another way, but willpower wont make me good looking or undo all my fatal mistakes. i guess the point of this thread is to say enjoy it while it lasts
