Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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For a while now I've had it with this lifestyle. I'm done, I rotted in front of a screen for 16 hours a day for more than a decade. There's nothing remotely interesting for me in this lifestyle anymore.
But I can't give it up. Idk if I slowly became like this over time, of if I was always like this so that's why I was isolating myself in my room all along. But over time I became truly agoraphobic.
I just really don't want to leave the house. I will when I have to, like when I'm forced to wageslave. But I just really don't want to go outside, it's making me so anxious. So I'm stuck inside, but all that there is inside is being in front of a screen. That's all there is to it. I feel like I'm stuck, in prison and my warden is my own brain. So I keep doing the same thing day after day, trying to fill the void by finding some game to interest me, but for years now not even games are fun, they get boring in 5 minutes.
But I can't give it up. Idk if I slowly became like this over time, of if I was always like this so that's why I was isolating myself in my room all along. But over time I became truly agoraphobic.
I just really don't want to leave the house. I will when I have to, like when I'm forced to wageslave. But I just really don't want to go outside, it's making me so anxious. So I'm stuck inside, but all that there is inside is being in front of a screen. That's all there is to it. I feel like I'm stuck, in prison and my warden is my own brain. So I keep doing the same thing day after day, trying to fill the void by finding some game to interest me, but for years now not even games are fun, they get boring in 5 minutes.