Yeah, I'm only 19 and it feels like I'm running out of stamina to keep going in this life. It's so fucked up to have to be this exhausted and sick of life at such a young age like us. I also have bad insomnia. I haven't slept straight through without waking up once, twice or three times in around 3 years. I'm also a night owl, so everything in society is against my natural circadian rhythm. I'm in the process of looking for a nightshift job. I doubt I will make it past 35, and might even go before 30. I have some chronic health issues that require daily high dose laxatives just to keep my intestines going. My heart also has a defect called LVNC. If my physical health issues don't finish me off in 10 years, I will probably finish it myself then. The thought of becoming a middle aged man with no friends, family, gf, and still a virgin loser is not pleasant.