I can't really express what i mean, but if you clicked read
In 7th grade i got put into a class with 3 dudes, 2 of which were hoodlums, and 1 barely speaking swedish, then i changed class at 8th grade. I became a social butterfly, my adhd was activated constantly, and i was probably made fun of, but in general had many friends up to 9th grade
Here comes the problem.
For truecels, school and your performance is a roll of a dice, i got put into a hoodlum class whilst being a normal incel looking dude, under the summer i got to experience virtually losing all friends from 9th grade, and spending my entire summer indoors mustering up more and more anxiety, my school life became annoying as hell, to be frank i had 1 other "loser" friend, but he at the very least were passionate for gaming, and was making more than i did a year through stocks (this guy had 36k in stocks at 17 lol)
So i got a bit bullied here and there, and may i say they were very kind, cuz i was one weird fuck. Honestly if i didn't have anxiety, i'd probably be a skater boy, maybe getting one sorry blowie from some chick in exchange for 5 grams of weed, alas that did not happen. I had high hopes for becoming an academic, if i didnt succeed on the social aspect, surely i'd succeed through academics? nope. School is mostly based on your social performance, whilst the chads were gathering decent grades and cruising through social life, i was getting no chill, all came crashing down when i finally got home.
Cut to 8th grade, i change class, i didn't factor in something, i got put into a giga chad class, they left me alone, but the weird looks, and people just knowing im a weirdo, and the occational weird gaze from women was enough. Instead of getting occational interactions from people i really don't liked, i now was completely surrounded by people, but completely excempt from any human interaction, hours of painstaking quiet was achieved, and again i fucked up. I almost immidietaly made friends from the extra curricular activites (which mixes in many classes) but ofc it wasnt sustained cuz of 1 class per week.
I would've done wayyyy better if classes were mixed, more people from different cliques, i'd probably have many friends from like-minded people. It was brutal seeing incels have friend groups, whilst i was rotting being invisible.
I guess this is more of a diary post. But so much pain could've been skipped. Really, im probably scarred for life. However im doing much better without school, and im truly thankful for my parents patience.
In 7th grade i got put into a class with 3 dudes, 2 of which were hoodlums, and 1 barely speaking swedish, then i changed class at 8th grade. I became a social butterfly, my adhd was activated constantly, and i was probably made fun of, but in general had many friends up to 9th grade
Here comes the problem.
For truecels, school and your performance is a roll of a dice, i got put into a hoodlum class whilst being a normal incel looking dude, under the summer i got to experience virtually losing all friends from 9th grade, and spending my entire summer indoors mustering up more and more anxiety, my school life became annoying as hell, to be frank i had 1 other "loser" friend, but he at the very least were passionate for gaming, and was making more than i did a year through stocks (this guy had 36k in stocks at 17 lol)
So i got a bit bullied here and there, and may i say they were very kind, cuz i was one weird fuck. Honestly if i didn't have anxiety, i'd probably be a skater boy, maybe getting one sorry blowie from some chick in exchange for 5 grams of weed, alas that did not happen. I had high hopes for becoming an academic, if i didnt succeed on the social aspect, surely i'd succeed through academics? nope. School is mostly based on your social performance, whilst the chads were gathering decent grades and cruising through social life, i was getting no chill, all came crashing down when i finally got home.
Cut to 8th grade, i change class, i didn't factor in something, i got put into a giga chad class, they left me alone, but the weird looks, and people just knowing im a weirdo, and the occational weird gaze from women was enough. Instead of getting occational interactions from people i really don't liked, i now was completely surrounded by people, but completely excempt from any human interaction, hours of painstaking quiet was achieved, and again i fucked up. I almost immidietaly made friends from the extra curricular activites (which mixes in many classes) but ofc it wasnt sustained cuz of 1 class per week.
I would've done wayyyy better if classes were mixed, more people from different cliques, i'd probably have many friends from like-minded people. It was brutal seeing incels have friend groups, whilst i was rotting being invisible.
I guess this is more of a diary post. But so much pain could've been skipped. Really, im probably scarred for life. However im doing much better without school, and im truly thankful for my parents patience.
