I was told my whole life that if i be nice and empathic to women they will love me for it.
But then…. It was shortly after my 12th Birthday when i came to middleschool when the blackpill has hitted me hard.
Ive saw all These 14-18 year old chicks Dressing like whores in the winter and hanging only around with tall abusive loud mouthed chads, while i was a fat sensible kid who was bullied brutally for being fat.
Everytime i was nice and kind to women they looked down on me.
It was almost 1 year of absolute humiliation, The Boys had bullied me and the Girls has laughed me out but fortunaly i was released from the compulsory attendence by the age of 12 and a half.
Ive isolated myself since then and for the first years it really worked good through Coping with Videogames and Movies.
But since 2-3 years my sex and Validation drive has significantly increased, ive became more mature and sadly more frustrated since then.
Sometimes i watch old Commercials from my childhood and then i have to cry because i miss so much the time where i was happy playing alone with legos and watching Toy Story, Star wars and Spiderman without any need or urge of Validation.
I will never have such a happy time anymore like my childhood….
But then…. It was shortly after my 12th Birthday when i came to middleschool when the blackpill has hitted me hard.
Ive saw all These 14-18 year old chicks Dressing like whores in the winter and hanging only around with tall abusive loud mouthed chads, while i was a fat sensible kid who was bullied brutally for being fat.
Everytime i was nice and kind to women they looked down on me.
It was almost 1 year of absolute humiliation, The Boys had bullied me and the Girls has laughed me out but fortunaly i was released from the compulsory attendence by the age of 12 and a half.
Ive isolated myself since then and for the first years it really worked good through Coping with Videogames and Movies.
But since 2-3 years my sex and Validation drive has significantly increased, ive became more mature and sadly more frustrated since then.
Sometimes i watch old Commercials from my childhood and then i have to cry because i miss so much the time where i was happy playing alone with legos and watching Toy Story, Star wars and Spiderman without any need or urge of Validation.
I will never have such a happy time anymore like my childhood….
