Venting I wish I could dream forever

[Lifeless]

Most of my dreams feel like heaven, my dreams are a world where I feel loved and escape this cruel place called earth.

I wish I could live in a place where nothing is real and I'm alone with my own thoughts, I wish I could lucid dream forever, I could imagine myself having fun with 2D girls, and me having friends for once.

Unfortunately, I am forced to suffer in this failed world, nothing feels right.

I wish I could be happy and wake up to something other than a mental hell

 

[zd60]

you dream? weed and other drugs have completely killed all dreams for me

 

[lnceI]

I only have nightmares or normal dreams that feel very scary for no apparent reason

 

[Lifeless]

you dream? weed and other drugs have completely killed all dreams for me

I still do

I sometimes also have hallucinations because of lack of sleep

I wish I could have them more often

 

[Lifeless]

I only have nightmares or normal dreams that feel very scary for no apparent reason

brutal

 

[zd60]

I still do

I sometimes also have hallucinations because of lack of sleep

I wish I could have them more often

I get the hallucinations too, I sometimes stay awake 3-4 days a time. I have a love hate relationship with sleep

 

[Lifeless]

I get the hallucinations too, I sometimes stay awake 3-4 days a time. I have a love hate relationship with sleep

I sometimes stay awake for 2-3 days aswell

often, I just spend that time smoking and drinking my pain away

 

[zd60]

I sometimes stay awake for 2-3 days aswell

often, I just spend that time smoking and drinking my pain away

smoking and drinking the pain away is almost all I do. sometimes its worse when the pain is worse both physical and mental. i'm not sure whats worse between the constast mental pain or physical pain.

all my money that I get goes to weed, alcohol, and pain killers

 

[Lifeless]

smoking and drinking the pain away is almost all I do. sometimes its worse when the pain is worse both physical and mental. i'm not sure whats worse between the constast mental pain or physical pain.

all my money that I get goes to weed, alcohol, and pain killers

for me it's mental pain that's worse, I'm in constant physical pain anyway, I get random waves of mental pain and anger

 

[zd60]

for me it's mental pain that's worse, I'm in constant physical pain anyway, I get random waves of mental pain and anger

the mental pain gets easier with the drugs for me but the physical pain is the worst I think. especially the severe nerve pain or whatever it is i feel in my jaw

 

[Lifeless]

the mental pain gets easier with the drugs for me but the physical pain is the worst I think. especially the severe nerve pain or whatever it is i feel in my jaw

brutal man, for me I just have constant chest pain because of the amount of weed I smoke, and random waves of stomach pain because of IBS

it sucks but not like I can do anything about it

 

[zd60]

brutal man, for me I just have constant chest pain because of the amount of weed I smoke, and random waves of stomach pain because of IBS

it sucks but not like I can do anything about it

I get the chest pain too all the pains just add up daily that some of them I forget they are there. I've recently started losing all feeling in my hands its wonderful!

how much weed you smoke a day?

i smoke mainly carts now because they are the cheapest but I go through about 1-2 2-4g carts a day and a couple grams of flower in my dry herb from time to time daily. I used to smoke more but the prices got too much for me so had to cut down

 

[Lifeless]

I get the chest pain too all the pains just add up daily that some of them I forget they are there. I've recently started losing all feeling in my hands its wonderful!

how much weed you smoke a day?

i smoke mainly carts now because they are the cheapest but I go through about 1-2 2-4g carts a day and a couple grams of flower in my dry herb from time to time daily. I used to smoke more but the prices got too much for me so had to cut down

I don't really know how much, I just continue until I start coughing uncontrollably

 

[zd60]

I don't really know how much, I just continue until I start coughing uncontrollably

I see, I have to keep track because I have to buy it all the time. going through 4 grams of distilite a day adds up especially when i'm dosing 500mg edibles every 4 hours. you smoke flower bro?

 

[Lifeless]

I see, I have to keep track because I have to buy it all the time. going through 4 grams of distilite a day adds up especially when i'm dosing 500mg edibles every 4 hours. you smoke flower bro?

ye

 

[zd60]

ye

nice