I went to the city for the first time in this year while living the NEET lifestyle.

[NeetSupremacist]

So today I went outside to the big city after not having to leave the town where I live. I haven't been outside the town for over a year I think because I almost never get outside while living the NEET lifestyle, every time I ask myself: Why should I leave my house when I have no friends to go to and nothing to do outside my life expect for the internet? But today for some reason I went outside and decided to take the bus to the big city. At first when I went outside I walked to the bus stop and needed to wait at least 10 minutes before the bus came, meanwhile 2 couples came next to me. White chad at least 6' 0 with his stacy a few meters from my left side and another dude with his girlfriend at my right side, both were engaged in low tier sexual actions like kissing each other and hugging each other. Suicidefuel straight when I decide to go to the city for the first time in a whole year, I pretended I did not see them doing that kissing and shit and just stared at the trees on the other side of the road.

After that the bus finally arrived and I got in and I stepped out when I reached the city, I went for some walks and entered some shops because I wanted to buy some clothes but without success. After walking for a while I only saw normies, it's like my view of the world after taking the blackpill has totally changed for me. I started to observe the people and their behavior from the black pill perspective and I saw and recognized that I was a real manlet and that most couples were long people. Though I saw one couple who were about my height (5'6) and that guy had a white hot chick and she was about the same height as the manlet. It was interesting to go for the day and see for myself the cruel reality of the black pill, being a manlet and ugly in this country is suicidefuel by itself and seeing happy people (friday night) having fun with each other and socializing made me sad because I know I'll never enjoy something like that. I also saw a big group of people having fun but they were pretty loud, I thought in myself may God curse you guys, you guys live carefree because of your genes and don't understand the cruel realities we live in.

This was my story for the day.

 

[Doomedanincel]

tldr

 

[ControlledInsanity]

tldr

OP takes the bus into the city and gets heightmogged by Stacys, curses normies for being dealt a good hand.

 

[Blindcell]

Hey Bro,

Good on your for taking a day and going outside. Don't expect things in the outside world to change, you have no ability to change how this world is run by the normies but you do have the ability to change how you look at the world itself. I'm 5'11 in a country where the average guy is 6'2, so to even be considered attractive you got to be at least 6'2 and preferred 6'5 by girls. You'll always occasionally see a smaller couple dating each other. But you know I don't let it bother me and I don't think you should either. Think of it this way: Do you really want a girl that is just with you because you are tall? Normy desires are not really worth it anyway. It's all superficial and no meat. Sure attraction has its merits, I'm not going to lie about that but to base the majority of your experience around that is just saddening bro. Also most people just pretend to be happy, it's a face they put up to the rest of the world because god forbid you're actually honest with how you feel. You'd just go even lower on the social totem pole.

Keep going outside when you feel like it, I often visit the park and hang out in the trees like I used to do as a kid, just stop focusing on the things you can't change and instead focus on the thing you do have control over and enjoy. Your own self-image and understanding of the world. It doesn't need to be bleak but it will be if you decide that is all that you will focus on.

Much love,

Peace,

 

[Deleted member 4159]

This is why i go to the movies during the day

 

[last_man]

your first mistake was going outside

 

[LynksDisease]

Did you go full hikikomori mode? Or you just dont go to the city. After only staying at bed for like 2-3 weeks, it feels so surreal to go out. It feels like the world is still functioning and moving without you. I think couples/chads/girls have always been there. When you realize you are incel and alone, you start realizing how bad is ur life .

Just an advice: Dont pay attention to people. It make things worse. I always go out with my headphones.

 

[NeetSupremacist]

Did you go full hikikomori mode? Or you just dont go to the city. After only staying at bed for like 2-3 weeks, it feels so surreal to go out. It feels like the world is still functioning and moving without you. I think couples/chads/girls have always been there. When you realize you are incel and alone, you start realizing how bad is ur life .

Just an advice: Dont pay attention to people. It make things worse. I always go out with my headphones.

Yes I've been living my life for the last year in full hikikomori mode and yes you're right with your advice.

 

[LynksDisease]

Yes I've been living my life for the last year in full hikikomori mode and yes you're right with your advice.

How you get ur food? When i go full hiki, i use delivery + shoppinh at night.

 

[NeetSupremacist]

How you get ur food? When i go full hiki, i use delivery + shoppinh at night.

I live with my parents, they provide the food. And if they are not at home I use delivery.

 

[LynksDisease]

I live with my parents, they provide the food. And if they are not at home I use delivery.

Good luck, boyo. Try to get ur own place. It is always hard to live with parents, especially if u are neeting. Also, try to take care ur health. Being sick is so much SuicideFuel.

 

[NeetSupremacist]

Good luck, boyo. Try to get ur own place. It is always hard to live with parents, especially if u are neeting. Also, try to take care ur health. Being sick is so much SuicideFuel.

I almost died last year because of bacteria infection and got operated in the IC, after that I went full hiki mode. I'm thinking of going into my own place this year, living with my parents is depressing. They see me living this life and my mother is telling me to go to the doctor because she believes I'm mentally not oke anymore. It's depressing as fuck.