I'm mostly pissed at myself right now. What the fuck do I have to show for my life? NOTHING. Just a stupid worthless degree, a wagie job I hate, and a good credit score. THAT'S LITERALLY IT. I wasted half a fucking decade on NOTHING. I feel so stupid. I could have done it all differently. Yeah I still would never have had a gf probably but at least I could have had a better degree, a better chance at a career. Maybe some more money. It's possible my life could have maybe even amounted to something more, even if I never would have been able to have a family or a wife. I could have been somebody. But I fucking threw it all away like a retard. It is too late to turn it all around, I am 24 now. It is over for me. I no longer have the benefits of youth or time on my side.
Really other than looks, money is everything in this world. If you do not have money, it's over. That is the only thing that is partially in my control that matters.
I have nothing to show for my stupid retarded life. I contribute nothing to the world. The world hates me and I hate myself. I feel like a total piece of shit. I am worthless garbage and now my personality and mind gas been degraded to match my horrible looks. I am truly a subhuman in every sense of the word.
Really other than looks, money is everything in this world. If you do not have money, it's over. That is the only thing that is partially in my control that matters.
I have nothing to show for my stupid retarded life. I contribute nothing to the world. The world hates me and I hate myself. I feel like a total piece of shit. I am worthless garbage and now my personality and mind gas been degraded to match my horrible looks. I am truly a subhuman in every sense of the word.
