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Shit.. fellas, this time, it's well and truly, over. Done. Finished. Concluded. Ended. Gone.
Yesterday, while pacing around aimlessly, unable to sit still and stressed out of mind, I stumbled upon a measuring tape, and thought, hey, it's been forever since I checked my height, maybe by some miracle I grew a little? I uh, I marked my height on the wall, and measured the distance from the ground, to the mark. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I done it again. I started measuring myself in several different locations, and different rooms, to make sure I wasn't, I don't know, standing on uneven ground or something. I even lay down on the floor, measured myself horizontally, just to be absolutely sure.
I was utterly maniacal at this point, laughing, crying, unhinged, crazy. I felt as though reality had somehow shifted around me. How could this be? I was so certain of my height, certain of it! I was questionless about it, in the same way we are questionless about the sky being blue, about gravity, and day passing into night. This changed everything, my self perception was mechanically, officially, by number, taken down to an even lower point than I thought possible. I am not five foot six, as I had believed for at least four or five years now. I am, five foot, four. Did, perhaps, I somehow grow smaller? Did the crushing pain, the weight upon my back, take such a toll upon my stature?
Now, for you tall people, who this may seem a minor difference to, you must understand. To us manlets, every inch is precious, every inch becomes crucial under 5'10. Millimeters are the difference between life and death. Those two inches, are everything. With those two inches, you go from...
God, I'm not explaining it, I don't care. I'm sure you see the monumental difference between those two numbers.
I have no idea how this slipped past me, how this illusion came to be. I do not remember settling on the idea I was 5'6. I had taken it as fact, since forever.
I use to cope, thinking, 'hey, I'm not thaaat far off 5'10, I'm about the same height as Tom Cruise, Jack Black, Robin Williams..'
I am no manlet. I am a turbomanlet. It makes sense. I see it now. Even at 5'6, you would still be taller than most girls. I was shorter than most females, and just about every man. I see it now.
Fucking Christ, hahahahaaha, how absurd is this? It's fucking hilarious! I admit, I can't stop laughing. I've been living as 5'4 my whole life! And yet, learning the truth has put my already shattered ego into an even deeper state of crisis! Just fucking laugh!
Here I am, 5'4. 2/10 face. As far from NT as one can hope to be while retaining sanity. 4 inch dick. (I hope.. god forbid I measure that again and find I was wrong
)
No redeeming factors. None. No chance of ever being respected by anyone. No chance of ever being taken seriously.
I think, it's really time old Gremlin took his leave, departed, climbed the rope. It seems the universe is hellbent on worsening and worsening my life with each passing month. If I refuse to heed it's warnings, I can't imagine what horrors it will inflict upon me next.
5'4. Five four. Not 5'6. Jesus Christ.
I can't believe it. I'm not gonna make it. 5'4.
hahaaahaaahaha
Shit.. fellas, this time, it's well and truly, over. Done. Finished. Concluded. Ended. Gone.
Yesterday, while pacing around aimlessly, unable to sit still and stressed out of mind, I stumbled upon a measuring tape, and thought, hey, it's been forever since I checked my height, maybe by some miracle I grew a little? I uh, I marked my height on the wall, and measured the distance from the ground, to the mark. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I done it again. I started measuring myself in several different locations, and different rooms, to make sure I wasn't, I don't know, standing on uneven ground or something. I even lay down on the floor, measured myself horizontally, just to be absolutely sure.
I was utterly maniacal at this point, laughing, crying, unhinged, crazy. I felt as though reality had somehow shifted around me. How could this be? I was so certain of my height, certain of it! I was questionless about it, in the same way we are questionless about the sky being blue, about gravity, and day passing into night. This changed everything, my self perception was mechanically, officially, by number, taken down to an even lower point than I thought possible. I am not five foot six, as I had believed for at least four or five years now. I am, five foot, four. Did, perhaps, I somehow grow smaller? Did the crushing pain, the weight upon my back, take such a toll upon my stature?
Now, for you tall people, who this may seem a minor difference to, you must understand. To us manlets, every inch is precious, every inch becomes crucial under 5'10. Millimeters are the difference between life and death. Those two inches, are everything. With those two inches, you go from...
God, I'm not explaining it, I don't care. I'm sure you see the monumental difference between those two numbers.
I have no idea how this slipped past me, how this illusion came to be. I do not remember settling on the idea I was 5'6. I had taken it as fact, since forever.
I use to cope, thinking, 'hey, I'm not thaaat far off 5'10, I'm about the same height as Tom Cruise, Jack Black, Robin Williams..'
I am no manlet. I am a turbomanlet. It makes sense. I see it now. Even at 5'6, you would still be taller than most girls. I was shorter than most females, and just about every man. I see it now.
Fucking Christ, hahahahaaha, how absurd is this? It's fucking hilarious! I admit, I can't stop laughing. I've been living as 5'4 my whole life! And yet, learning the truth has put my already shattered ego into an even deeper state of crisis! Just fucking laugh!
Here I am, 5'4. 2/10 face. As far from NT as one can hope to be while retaining sanity. 4 inch dick. (I hope.. god forbid I measure that again and find I was wrong
)No redeeming factors. None. No chance of ever being respected by anyone. No chance of ever being taken seriously.
I think, it's really time old Gremlin took his leave, departed, climbed the rope. It seems the universe is hellbent on worsening and worsening my life with each passing month. If I refuse to heed it's warnings, I can't imagine what horrors it will inflict upon me next.
5'4. Five four. Not 5'6. Jesus Christ.
I can't believe it. I'm not gonna make it. 5'4.
