I don't even know how I ended to be his wife.
I always avoided mysoginistic guys aka 'nice guys'. In fact being a 'nice guy' for me was the biggest sign of an innate mysogyny.
I could always sense misogyny of the so-called 'nice guys'.
But X was different. He was so attentive and caring when we first met. And he also acted like a real man. Soon I knew that he spent some time at youth detention center for trying to strangle a girl while being 12 y.o. And he also expressed hatred towards women in general. But I thought that this was just a result of a childhood trauma and not some innate mysogyny like being nice and respectful which is a biggest red flag for me ( teehee ).
But soon X became more controlling. He controlled that I was wearing and lately he started controlling my interactions with others. Once he beat me badly and I watched videos on 'how to hide your bruises when your husband beats you' before going to work.
I still hoped that he may change. He used to beat me when I was pregnant. I never complained to my parents about him ( in fact I never complained to my parents about anything except that one time when I complained about one nerdy guy in school because he was too nice when I was 15 y.o. ).
I started to discover female accessories in our flat like cosmetics, fragrance and handbags. I started suspect X that he may be a serial killer. I have read in the press that few local women were missing during the time when X was absent.
He told me that he needed to work longer. I don't believed him fully but I don't cared if he was a killer because I knew that law wouldn't punish me anyway.
Sex was even better after I discovered that he may be a killer.
Now after experiencing all this horror I'm planning to write a book because I need some money.
I always avoided mysoginistic guys aka 'nice guys'. In fact being a 'nice guy' for me was the biggest sign of an innate mysogyny.
I could always sense misogyny of the so-called 'nice guys'.
But X was different. He was so attentive and caring when we first met. And he also acted like a real man. Soon I knew that he spent some time at youth detention center for trying to strangle a girl while being 12 y.o. And he also expressed hatred towards women in general. But I thought that this was just a result of a childhood trauma and not some innate mysogyny like being nice and respectful which is a biggest red flag for me ( teehee ).
But soon X became more controlling. He controlled that I was wearing and lately he started controlling my interactions with others. Once he beat me badly and I watched videos on 'how to hide your bruises when your husband beats you' before going to work.
I still hoped that he may change. He used to beat me when I was pregnant. I never complained to my parents about him ( in fact I never complained to my parents about anything except that one time when I complained about one nerdy guy in school because he was too nice when I was 15 y.o. ).
I started to discover female accessories in our flat like cosmetics, fragrance and handbags. I started suspect X that he may be a serial killer. I have read in the press that few local women were missing during the time when X was absent.
He told me that he needed to work longer. I don't believed him fully but I don't cared if he was a killer because I knew that law wouldn't punish me anyway.
Sex was even better after I discovered that he may be a killer.
Now after experiencing all this horror I'm planning to write a book because I need some money.
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