SuicideFuel I was dealt with the worst hand here

[MonkeyInaT34]

I have no future, I'm forced to depend on my primate birth giver because I have no other choice, I fucking hate that monkey, all she ever did and does is abuse me. In america it's not over even if you're homeless, you can find ways to steady your ground, here, you need to be upper class, have a diploma, and good family connections to get anywhere, otherwise you're fucked.

I having nothing, I have no inheritance because for whatever fucking reason, my phantom father didn't think about leaving anything for me, so I can't afford college, and the primate wants to get rid of me but I have nowhere to go.

Nowhere to fucking go and not going anywhere, that's my life, I wish I died at birth, in fact I was close to dying due to premature birth (7 months) but I just got unlucky didn't I? Fated to live a life of nothing but agony.

I am destined to rope, I can run but no one can outrun fate, no matter what I do to extend whatever life I have left, it will be short lived, I don't even think I'll be remembered after I die, just another rotting corpse in an unmarked grave.

 

[FBI]

I don't even think I'll be remembered after I die, just another rotting corpse in an unmarked grave.

I know a way you can make sure people remembER your name after you die.

 

[lugubriouseanastar]

Nowhere to fucking go and not going anywhere, that's my life, I wish I died at birth, in fact I was close to dying due to premature birth (7 months) but I just got unlucky didn't I? Fated to live a life of nothing but agony.

Objectively speaking, it’d be better if I’d never been born. That’s just wishful thinking on my part, since I’m already here typing these words. But many of us are the same. That’s why we’re here. You’re not alone.

 

[MonkeyInaT34]

Objectively speaking, it’d be better if I’d never been born. That’s just wishful thinking on my part, since I’m already here typing these words. But many of us are the same. That’s why we’re here. You’re not alone.

It's just surprising to me how I even survived, I was born in a car, my lungs weren't functional yet so I was suffocating, but somehow my father managed to get me to a hospital in time and I was placed in NICU.

I was minutes away from not having to live such a miserable life under the possession of my abusive birth giver, in this 3rd world shit hole where nobody cares about me, how disappointing.

 

[zd60]

sounds similar to my life, i've been fucked since birth was born too early wasn't supposed to live, have endless health problems and no actual chance at anything but roping

 

[lugubriouseanastar]

It's just surprising to me how I even survived, I was born in a car, my lungs weren't functional yet so I was suffocating, but somehow my father managed to get me to a hospital in time and I was placed in NICU.

I was minutes away from not having to live such a miserable life under the possession of my abusive birth giver, in this 3rd world shit hole where nobody cares about me, how disappointing.

That’s sad to hear. God, some of us should’ve never been born. I’m one of those people who aren’t meant to be here, yet I am. I don’t know what to say except that I wish you well. We’ll just keep distracting ourselves with whatever’s enjoyable enough to stop us from thinking about it, for the moment, until we’re dead.

 

[Cuckoja]

Pretty similar, except i had two parents who did everything in their power to make me fail and im not exagerating. DO what i do, get a manual labor min wage shitty job and survive, wwhat for? I dont know tbh.

 

[MonkeyInaT34]

Pretty similar, except i had two parents who did everything in their power to make me fail and im not exagerating. DO what i do, get a manual labor min wage shitty job and survive, wwhat for? I dont know tbh.

I do have a plan, I can move into my uncle's basement and work for his family (they need a housekeeper), it's not much but I can get by. The only issue is, my uncle is currently building a house elsewhere, and it probably won't have a basement for me to reside in, when he moves, that's when my plan drops.

I would've moved in with my father, but the problem stays the same, he has no room for me, and he already has a housekeeper. The good thing is that he could pay for university if he's still alive, the bad thing is that I don't have either a driver's license nor a vehicle, so I can't attend anyways.

I might not make it to 20, I can hope I do, but hope doesn't do anything for me, I could only dream of making it out here alive.