Venting I was about to suicide that day

[Mohamedömar]

Last year, I was in analytical chemistry lab for attending a section, I was in the highest rate of depression, while I was out of the lab (waiting it to start) the elevator was open and I saw myself in the elevator mirror.

I saw myself, A short 5'4 skinny fat with dark brown burned ugly baby face and stupid glasses and looking retard (I am a little bit smart but I look like a low iq due to my 3/10 face), my eyes filled with tears and felt bad for myself, my heat was broken and I said in myself I don't deserve this body and face I am a good guy since I was young.

In front of the elevator, there was a small cart carrying bottles of chemicals, one of these chemicals was sodium nitrate, I know that this chemical material used in some suicide cases and I was ready to take the bottle and drink it cuz I didn't want to live more, but I prevented myself because I was scared from going to hell (I wasn't religious and didn't pray at that time)

At the end, I forced myself to enter the section and I was heartbroken

 

[CRASH THE CUCK]

my heat was broken

over for coldcels

 

[Mohamedömar]

over for coldcels

Over for all truecels

 

[Pancakecel]

Get that medical degree, and then a job in the west. If after some years of having that, you still want to rope, then fair enough.

 

[GobidMujahid]

but I prevented myself because I was scarred from going to hell

SubhanAllah, brother. I respect you.

 

[FromOuterVenus]

there was a small cart carrying bottles of chemicals, one of these chemicals was sodium nitrate, I know that this chemical material used in some suicide cases

They really have that chemical this open to the public?

 

[Qech__]

one of these chemicals was sodium nitrate

dawg SN is a painful way to die though
you're gonna be repeating your suicide for eternity in hell so you better pick a painless method

 

[Mohamedömar]

SN is a painful way to die though

I know tbh

you're gonna be repeating your suicide for eternity in hell so you better pick a painless method

true

 

[Shark]

Brutal

 

[andrej]

analytical chemistry lab

Idk what that means but do you know how to make drugs?

 

[Mohamedömar]

then a job in the west.

I will try

 

[Mohamedömar]

Idk what that means but do you know how to make drugs?

It is titration stuff and knowing the amount of drugs and some flourescent probes

 

[Mohamedömar]

They really have that chemical this open to the public?

In Egypt and all shitholes, Neglect is everywhere

 

[Mohamedömar]

SubhanAllah, brother. I respect you.

Thx brocel
I will listen to the record

 

[GobidMujahid]

Thx brocel
I will listen to the record

It is a nasheed with a recitation of Surah Al-Baqarah ayah 214 in the beginning. I believe the reciter is Sheikh Ahmad bin Ali Al-Ajmi, who is one of my favorite.

 

[GobidMujahid]

Thx brocel

You are a positive inspiration for me bro

 

[Mohamedömar]

It is a nasheed with a recitation of Surah Al-Baqarah ayah 214 in the beginning. I believe the reciter is Sheikh Ahmad bin Ali Al-Ajmi, who is one of my favorite.

I listened to it
it was cool

 

[Mohamedömar]

You are a positive inspiration for me bro

Thx