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dggamer007k7
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- Joined
- Feb 4, 2025
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I just joined this little community of yours, my goal here is just try to grasp some of the logic behind all of this, considering that in the outside world, the consensus is that 'incel' is a thing to be despised or feared most of the time and people really use yall as laughing stock or put yourselves in a bad light, i also wanted to see if i qualify as a proper incel.
lets see, growing up i've never even bothered to approach girls cause i was the typical overweight, shy and ugly kid and when i did it was quite shameful, i would lose my marbles very quickly and there was one time where a girl just straight up laughed at my face, back then it really didn't matter cause i had a group and that was my support throughout elementary and middle school. On high school however, i lost it all and since there was kind of a pandemic going on i had absolutely zero human contact during a lengthy period of time, which ruined my life along with my minute social skills, i was a mute, anxiety filled, isolating prick, by the time classes came back i was already known as the quiet one, the introvert and i had to build myself up somehow, i had friends again they kind of adopted me into their circle and we really bonded throughout those 4 years but i couldn't for the life of me go beyond that, i didn't build a single meaningful relationship at that time, most(not all) of my classmates were merely acquaintances. I did go a little further with women, i talked a little more, interacted more with the ones i knew, little gestures etc etc but nothing ever came out of it, i never searched for a partner or whatever because i had mental problems of my own to solve. I spent(still do) most of my days at home playing videogames and watching youtube, there were some rare ocasions(3 or 4) where i was invited to parties and i did go to those, to drink myself blind of course, at least there i felt some conection to people.
Anyways, i'm a virgin and single since birth, i yearn a lot and i mean a ton, i hate myself more than i hate others, im quite hopeful sometimes, of course my circunstances differ greatly from the average US student(culture and all that) so that's why i wanted to see what yall have to say about it. i was a shy guy in a world of competitive extroverts, all around me.
lets see, growing up i've never even bothered to approach girls cause i was the typical overweight, shy and ugly kid and when i did it was quite shameful, i would lose my marbles very quickly and there was one time where a girl just straight up laughed at my face, back then it really didn't matter cause i had a group and that was my support throughout elementary and middle school. On high school however, i lost it all and since there was kind of a pandemic going on i had absolutely zero human contact during a lengthy period of time, which ruined my life along with my minute social skills, i was a mute, anxiety filled, isolating prick, by the time classes came back i was already known as the quiet one, the introvert and i had to build myself up somehow, i had friends again they kind of adopted me into their circle and we really bonded throughout those 4 years but i couldn't for the life of me go beyond that, i didn't build a single meaningful relationship at that time, most(not all) of my classmates were merely acquaintances. I did go a little further with women, i talked a little more, interacted more with the ones i knew, little gestures etc etc but nothing ever came out of it, i never searched for a partner or whatever because i had mental problems of my own to solve. I spent(still do) most of my days at home playing videogames and watching youtube, there were some rare ocasions(3 or 4) where i was invited to parties and i did go to those, to drink myself blind of course, at least there i felt some conection to people.
Anyways, i'm a virgin and single since birth, i yearn a lot and i mean a ton, i hate myself more than i hate others, im quite hopeful sometimes, of course my circunstances differ greatly from the average US student(culture and all that) so that's why i wanted to see what yall have to say about it. i was a shy guy in a world of competitive extroverts, all around me.