there was a time that i really wanted some pills to feel better but now i thinks its just poison.
but still i want to get diagnosis. i feel so fucked up in my head i want to know whats up.
2 flaws are
1. to pay 100$ to some cucked normie to listen to my bitch.
2. if ill do it - thats it, my mental healths will be offical. in my mind and in my medical record.
my problems:
1. depressing without a doubt. not like those normies with the depression memes.
2. mood changes. i can one moment think to myself "fuck those foids i dont care about them, i can still enjoy life" and 10 minutes later "im ugly af and im subhuman to society, my life is meaninless".
3. theres this weird thing alot of times, most of it happens when im in a bad mood - i just have bad thoughts in my mind and i cant stop think about them. like i do it to me me on purpose, on purpose i put in my head thoughts i dont want to think about, but i keeo pushing those thought to my mind and keep thinking about new thoughts i dont want to think about. like theres something inside me that wants to fuck with me.
4. sometimes when i read something i feel like i cant stop reading it if im not stopping at a point. and if the point is in the middle of a row, alot of times cuz i already see the word that is after the point i just keep reading untill the next point.
or that i make myself read the nickname of someone even tho i dont give a fuck or that i see a comment in X time and i must calculate how much time passed from that comment.
all those things happens sometimes, except depression which is 95% of the time.
its over for me. even if i would wake up as a chad tomorrow, my life would still be shit.
but still i want to get diagnosis. i feel so fucked up in my head i want to know whats up.
2 flaws are
1. to pay 100$ to some cucked normie to listen to my bitch.
2. if ill do it - thats it, my mental healths will be offical. in my mind and in my medical record.
my problems:
1. depressing without a doubt. not like those normies with the depression memes.
2. mood changes. i can one moment think to myself "fuck those foids i dont care about them, i can still enjoy life" and 10 minutes later "im ugly af and im subhuman to society, my life is meaninless".
3. theres this weird thing alot of times, most of it happens when im in a bad mood - i just have bad thoughts in my mind and i cant stop think about them. like i do it to me me on purpose, on purpose i put in my head thoughts i dont want to think about, but i keeo pushing those thought to my mind and keep thinking about new thoughts i dont want to think about. like theres something inside me that wants to fuck with me.
4. sometimes when i read something i feel like i cant stop reading it if im not stopping at a point. and if the point is in the middle of a row, alot of times cuz i already see the word that is after the point i just keep reading untill the next point.
or that i make myself read the nickname of someone even tho i dont give a fuck or that i see a comment in X time and i must calculate how much time passed from that comment.
all those things happens sometimes, except depression which is 95% of the time.
its over for me. even if i would wake up as a chad tomorrow, my life would still be shit.
