It's Over I want to cry, but I physically can't and is hurting my head

[Deleted member 7573]

Today was a pretty bad day in the gym and college, most of the times 1 or 2 people call me ugly in a single day, almost 7 people decided to humiliate me and call me ugly, "filho de cruz credo"(son of a creature), disgusting and so on in just a single day, I have a test tomorrow but I don't have strength to study, I'm tired man, tired that my appearance will be my death someday.

Most of the time is not the fact of people calling me ugly that makes me sad and hateful, if they said the contrary I would know it's a lie, what really makes me mad is that I know everything I'm losing when people classify me as ugly, relationships, social circles, a good paying job, friends, contacts, life in general, all the things people value in life that I will never have only because I was born a ugly male.

This makes me feel sad as fuck but I cant cry, I feel everything, absolute everything when you are sad, but I can't relieve it by crying, it is stuck in my head and in my throat I wanted to cry to see if this would give me some relief but I simply can't and this is making me feel a pain in the back of my head I'm thinking in using medications to make it less painful but this is so frequently that will spent a lot in medication to make it stop, I don't know what to do.

 

[FrothySolutions]

Why can't you physically cry?

 

[Deleted member 20659]

Are you a BRcel? How old are you?

 

[Deleted member 7573]

Why can't you physically cry?

It's as if my eyes are totally dry, I'm feeling extremely bad today with all the things that are happening, but I can't cry.

 

[Uglyme]

It's hard when you don't feel welcomed anywhere

 

[Deleted member 7573]

Are you a BRcel? How old are you?

I am Brazilian, 25 years old.

 

[Deleted member 20659]

I am Brazilian, 25 years old.

How can you take that as an adult? I would understand it if you were in highschool i guess. Just tell those people to fuck off, refuse to see them, etc. Do they pretend to like you or what?

 

[FrothySolutions]

It's as if my eyes are totally dry, I'm feeling extremely bad today with all the things that are happening, but I can't cry.

But do you know why your eyes are so dry?

 

[Deleted member 7573]

How can you take that as an adult? I would understand it if you were in highschool i guess. Just tell those people to fuck off, refuse to see them, etc. Do they pretend to like you or what?

No most of them don't even know me but it is always like this, in the gym there are a group of chadlites and beckys who are always talking shit like that against subhumans who go there, I think they want to make us give up in going there and have the gym only for them, in college it doesn't need to be close just passing throught the corridor foids called me ugly, in the class my philosophy teacher was talking about aristocracy and she used me and a low tier normie saying "Jeff and NormieGuy have aristocrats face traits" and the foids in the back of the class said "Yeah ugly traits TeeHee" and people started to laugh.

But do you know why your eyes are so dry?

Don't know man, I can touch them, almost hurting them, and just a really small amount of tears come out of it, but when you think about crying tears is like a desert.

 

[Deleted member 20659]

No most of then don't even know me

This is insane. I could never imagine people I interact with on a daily basis acting that way. I have no friends and am a sperg but people tend to be nice

 

[Deleted member 20659]

I can't imagine people being this evil on a regular basis.

As I see it someone like that must lack self awareness. I could never consciously do something like that, I would imediately imagine myself as a bully from some movie and be ashamed, or start fearing being confronted by someone else for being rude and sadistic, etc
Some people just dont have this conditioning and sensibilities, they do what they can get away with, and are low inhib, egoistic and obsessed with status

 

[Eternal Observer]

Sorry to hear that man. Try to learn to ignore them, just dont let them know you're bothered. They are nothing but irl psychopathic trolls that seek a reaction. Do not give them one. If anything, let them know that words mean nothing and that they better not try anything physical, and just leave it at that. If they try anything, defend yourself by any means. You cant just cower away and cry in a world like this.

 

[AlexanderTheGreat11]

IT won't touch this

I'm really sorry OP. You don't deserve any of that , People should keep their thoughts to themselves instead of insulting you for no reason , You're just studying and improving at the gym , No reason for them to be mean , Don't let them walk over you though when they're being too annoying , Otherwise just ignore them

 

[Deleted member 7573]

Sorry to hear that man. Try to learn to ignore them, just dont let them know you're bothered. They are nothing but irl psychopathic trolls that seek a reaction. Do not give them one. If anything, let them know that words mean nothing and that they better not try anything physical, and just leave it at that. If they try anything, defend yourself by any means. You cant just cower away and cry in a world like this.

Most of the time I'm really good in ignoring it, it is specially easier in the gym because I'm always using my headphones, but today just happened the exact moment they chose to insult me I was doing a leg exercise that I needed to remove my headphones and cellphone from my pocket or it would fall in the ground. In college I can't do too much but just listen and try my best to ignore it.

 

[Eternal Observer]

Most of the time I'm really good in ignoring it, it is specially easier in the gym because I'm always using my headphones, but today just happened the exact moment they chose to insult me I was doing a leg exercise that I needed to remove my headphones and cellphone from my pocket or it would fall in the ground. In college I can't do too much but just listen and try my best to ignore it.

Screw them, talk is cheap. Just remember to never entertain psychopaths. If you ignore them long enough they won't have any reason to prolong insulting you. It'll just come across as tryhard and pathetic. if i were in your shoes, i'd just offer to fight them one on one to settle things but ignoring them is probably best.

 

[Sparrow's Song]

When people call you ugly several time a day, you are entitled to free plastic surgery.

The fact that you can even mentally handle going to uni every day is impressive, I would have done some insane shit in class if I was in your shoes.

"Son of a creature", I hope some gym equipment falls on whoever said that to you.