I want to stop being attracted to women.
Throwaway for obvious reasons.
I know this is a very unusual post. So here it goes:
First off, I'm not an incel or a redpill imbecile. I'm 18M and a virgin who just wants to stop being attracted to women sexually and romantically. I don't hate women or think that I'm entitled to sex or love from them. Let's just say I'm way too much horny than normal. I hate being horny. I hate being attracted to women. It makes me want to cry so bad.
I want to confess that I do objectify and sexualize women. Though I don't really do that with every single woman I see. But I admit with shame that I sexualize some women I know and fantasize having sex with them. I'm trying my absolute best to stop being horny, but damn there are way too many attractive women out there.
I have read and heard about experiences of most women with regards to sexualization and yeah, most women do complain about being sexualized by men. I don't want to sound like a white knight but I just feel like apologizing to all women for the sexualization they experience, on my behalf at least
The root of sexualization and objectification of women is one thing: attraction to women. Yes I know you are supposed to be attracted to the opposite gender neither am I saying all men should stop being heterosexual. But I'm only talking about myself. I just want to stop being attracted to women.
I don't feel like a human. I feel ashamed of my biological instincts. I hate how God has cursed me with these instincts. I just want to apologize to all women for being attracted to them. I feel like I have zero rights to be horny, zero right to be attracted to women.
I don't give a shit anymore, Idc that it's 'natural' to be attracted to women as a male. I believe it's disgusting for me personally to be attracted to women. I just want a way to train my brain to stop being attracted to women. I don't want the advice that it's 'natural' to be attracted to women.
I'm tired of this. I just want to stop being thinking about sex, hot women and boobs all the time. I want to feel absolutely nothing when I see an attractive woman or a half naked woman anywhere.
Again, I know it's a very unusual post. It seems cringe and makes no sense in a lots of places. But please understand what I'm feeling is real. I DON'T NEED THERAPY FOR THIS. I want to eliminate these feelings and I'm completely happy with doing that. I don't need to be convinced otherwise.
I want to live a happier life without romantic relationships or sex. I want to be free of the horny. Becoming an asexual would be ideal, but you can't really change your sexuality now, can you?
Edit: Another thing I wanted to add, which I already mentioned, but just wanted to emphasize, is that I don't objectify most women all the time. I interact like a normal person with every woman.
Edit 2: Another thing I forgot was that I don't watch porn. Keep this in mind before you give that advice.