It would be a last alternative, but it is a meme, it is not very effective
You're like 18 lmfao. When I was your age this shit didn't even worry me. You will ascend because unlike me you will be putting in more effort/care in the most important stages of our growth.
Even back when I was that age I knew something about me was off, several years later and its only gotten worse.
Well around that age I was put into a mental hospital for trying to replicate Columbine. I was also diagnosed as a narcissist with sadistic features around that time.
How did you get caught?
My parents found all my plans/hidden journals and also they found out I tried to acquire firearms from a dealer. The second thing happened first though because I was a dumbass who gave out my real address/phone number so when the files arrived my parents opened them and found out I was on my way to getting a .22 handgun and several rounds of ammo (for "target shooting"). They wondered why I needed a gun, then they searched my room and found out everything I was going to do.
More likely to rope nowadays than go ER so there's legit no threat.
Just do what the serial killer Rodney Alcala done. Buy an expensive camera, wonder around places where loads of femoids are and approach them saying your entering a photography competition and can you take their picture,. If their vain enough they say yes, and if you can persuade them to get into your car to go to a better place near you you know then your in.
