I used to feel so embarrassed

[Kointo1]

Embarrassed of my looks. Whenever I'd walk down the hallway in high school or a street, I felt envious of the people around me. I felt unworthy from the constant reminder that I was not attractive. It was and is still hell.

It's not the kind of embarrassment that you feel when everyone has their eyes on you awkwardly. It's the opposite. The lack of attention makes you feel unwanted and left out. Seeing people being merry and wonderfully in love with others, it made me feel so very embarrassed not to be a part of it all.

This is why I've locked myself away from society. Eternal boredom is better than eternal torment in my opinion. I'd rather have nothingness than hell after I die, so it's the same with life right now.

Conclusion: JUST LDAR

 

[Harvey_Weinstein_Hero]

same. It's truly a haunting and bottomless feeling knowing your alone in a crowded room. Longing for the slightest bit of attention or acknowledgment.

It's fate all true incels have felt and feel

 

[Akarin]

I used to wear hood all the time in high school because my hairline was so shitty. After I shaved my head I regained a lot of confidence but looked like a chemo kid

 

[Blackpill101]

Back then in HS I used to think that girls looked at me because of my "good" looks, but it turned out they were staring at my shitty scarred and acne-filled face. Just lol at my normie thinking back then...

 

[Kointo1]

I used  to wear hood all the time in high school because my hairline was so shitty. After I shaved my head I regained a lot of confidence but looked like a chemo kid

They didn't let anyone were hoods in my high school. They didn't want people hiding their faces in case of a shooting or something like that.

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Back then in HS I used to think that girls looked at me because of my "good" looks, but it turned out they were staring at my shitty scarred and acne-filled face. Just lol at my normie thinking back then...

I never got any looks from girls. Either that or I just wasn't paying attention.

 

[Harvey_Weinstein_Hero]

I used  to wear hood all the time in high school because my hairline was so shitty. After I shaved my head I regained a lot of confidence but looked like a chemo kid

> looked like a chemo kid

sorry,,,,

 

[Kointo1]

same. It's truly a haunting and bottomless feeling knowing your alone in a crowded room. Longing for the slightest bit of attention or acknowledgment.

It's fate all true incels have felt and feel

Even at the reject table I'd have to speak up to be noticed. AT THE REJECT TABLE for crying out loud.

 

[dr-problematic]

yeah, psychic automatically tries to recede from the agressor, who causes the pain to the mind and body, and when you are ugly its the society, so you start slowly distance yourself away with every poor and negative social interaction you get, untill you end up here.

when i've been to psychiatrist and what i noticed myself a lot, is that those of us who are truly ugly, concentrate on it all the time, like whenver you are outside or even when you are at home alone you wish this or this would be different.

when normally it shouldnt be the case, noone should be self centered all the time, it negatively impacts brain activity and on top of that, while you are feeling bad about yourself, others having in thoughts how to make money, how to become succesful and how to complete daily tasks.

so this shit literally strips you from anything good you could have achieved both internally and externally.

terrible.

ugly people need social pension, it should be considered as disability.

 

[Kointo1]

yeah, psychic automatically tries to recede from the agressor, who causes the pain to the mind and body, and when you are ugly its the society, so you start slowly distance yourself away with every poor and negative social interaction you get, untill you end up here.

when i've been to psychiatrist and what i noticed myself a lot, is that those of us who are truly ugly, concentrate on it all the time, like whenver you are outside or even when you are at home alone you wish this or this would be different.

when normally it shouldnt be the case, noone should be self centered all the time, it negatively impacts brain activity and on top of that, while you are feeling bad about yourself, others having in thoughts how to make money, how to become succesful and how to complete daily tasks.

so this shit literally strips you from anything good you could have achieved both internally and externally.

terrible.

ugly people need social pension, it should be considered as disability.

I think it would be fair to make it a disability, and that's not me just wanting benefits for myself (maybe a little lol), but for anyone that has to experience life with an ugly appearance.

About the focusing on yourself part, I tried to focus on myself as little as possible with some success. If I hadn't stopped myself then I would've been too depressed to do anything. Now I can completely unfocus on myself if I so choose now that I don't go out in the real world.

 

[Octopusgun2]

I was and still is the most invisible guy EVER. I have NEVER gotten looked at by femoids in the street while my Chad friend does all the time. But in HS it was even worse cause some sluts used to make fun of my face...

 

[Kointo1]

I was and still is the most invisible guy EVER. I have NEVER gotten looked at by femoids in the street while my Chad friend does all the time. But in HS it was even worse cause some sluts used to make fun of my face...

Roasties wouldn't make fun of my face in front of me very often, maybe once or twice, but I remember something brutal.

One time my roastie sister was driving me and her two friends home when my incel friend was walking from where he was dropped off from his bus. One of the slut friends said "I feel so bad for him, he looks likes a bull dog" or something like that. Everyone in the car laughed except for me. I felt like punching that roastie right in the face.

 

[dr-problematic]

I think it would be fair to make it a disability, and that's not me just wanting benefits for myself (maybe a little lol), but for anyone that has to experience life with an ugly appearance.

About the focusing on yourself part, I tried to focus on myself as little as possible with some success. If I hadn't stopped myself then I would've been too depressed to do anything. Now I can completely unfocus on myself if I so choose now that I don't go out in the real world.

u r workin or ldarin?

 

[Kointo1]

u r workin or ldarin?

LDARing. How else would I have so many posts? I spend all my time on here.

 

[whogivesafucc]

Yeah, I'm legit invisible. Sometimes I actually feel like a ghost who's trying to blend into society but is failing miserably at the task

 

[dr-problematic]

LDARing. How else would I have so many posts? I spend all my time on here.

its over, 1 week online for me as well

i wish i wasnt been born

 

[Kointo1]

its over, 1 week online for me as well

i wish i wasnt been born

1 week, 3 days for me. It's over.

 

[Octopusgun2]

I was and still is the most invisible guy EVER. I have NEVER gotten looked at by femoids in the street while my Chad friend does all the time. But in HS it was even worse cause some sluts used to make fun of my face...

Roasties wouldn't make fun of my face in front of me very often, maybe once or twice, but I remember something brutal.
One time my roastie sister was driving me and her two friends home when my incel friend was walking from where he was dropped off from his bus. One of the slut friends said "I feel so bad for him, he looks likes a bull dog" or something like that. Everyone in the car laughed except for me. I felt like punching that roastie right in the face.

Oh, I had roasties make fun of my face the whole time, sometimes multiple times a day and me getting in trouble and detentions that I never attended for it. I would get compared to that antagonist from The Smurphs...can’t remember his name. I also had a really a roastie tell me on FB in a comment reply that she feels bad for me that i’ll never get to know how vagina feels like because of my face...I shit you not.

 

[Kointo1]

Yeah, I'm legit invisible. Sometimes I actually feel like a ghost who's trying to blend into society but is failing miserably at the task

Well you're not invisible now, you're green! Just kidding, yeah I feel you. I'd go as far as to say that it's like being a dragon, constantly attacked by villagers.

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Oh, I had roasties make fun of my face the whole time, sometimes multiple times a day and me getting in trouble and detentions that I never attended for it. I would get compared to that antagonist from The Smurphs...can’t remember his name. I also had a really a roastie tell me on FB in a comment reply that she feels bad for me that i’ll never get to know how vagina feels like because of my face...I shit you not.

One time in middle school a female once said "What kind of parents do you have to make something as ugly as you".

I went home and cried into a pillow for hours.

 

[PM_ME_STRIPPERS]

sigh, the things id do just to be a 5/10......

 

[KValt]

I don’t really blame you. When people snap pictures of you and laugh it’s hard not to be.

 

[Kointo1]

I don’t really blame you. When people snap pictures of you and laugh it’s hard not to be.

This hasn't happened to me as far as I know. Its possible though since I don't really pay attention at all to my surroundings.