I remember I used to live in a world populated by spirits and hope. I used to feel connected to the world and the changing of era, of the chaos and rewriting of human history. That was how idealistic I used to be back then in high school. Somehow, somewhere, there was hope for me to write my own story.
Now, I've traveled, I've seen shit, I've worked here and there, I've known frustration, pain and hate in my flesh as time goes by like a train I can't catch.
In my mid 20's, my life is hopeless and despair endless. I've lost connection with zeitgeist.
Was my previous self holding the roots of what I've become, or did the world did this to the one I used to be ? I don't know. All I know is somehow some men were lucky enough to know another life path. They were given the grant of living happy normal life with barely any cost, compared to what I pay everyday to just suffer alone in silence.
Was human history always like this ? Did most men always have to face the ultimate truth of them being genealogical dead ends ? Was what we call civilization built in orgies taking place over the tumbs of the forgotten unchosen men ?
I can't bear the cruelty of reality anymore.
Now, I've traveled, I've seen shit, I've worked here and there, I've known frustration, pain and hate in my flesh as time goes by like a train I can't catch.
In my mid 20's, my life is hopeless and despair endless. I've lost connection with zeitgeist.
Was my previous self holding the roots of what I've become, or did the world did this to the one I used to be ? I don't know. All I know is somehow some men were lucky enough to know another life path. They were given the grant of living happy normal life with barely any cost, compared to what I pay everyday to just suffer alone in silence.
Was human history always like this ? Did most men always have to face the ultimate truth of them being genealogical dead ends ? Was what we call civilization built in orgies taking place over the tumbs of the forgotten unchosen men ?
I can't bear the cruelty of reality anymore.
