For the first time in YEARS I tried to talk to some foid. I began to talk with her on insta and shit, she was a weirdo and i liked that, she was a nerd and liked to do digital art and shit. I asked her out, she said yes, even tho I dont have photos on my insta, she said yes. I thought I made it, she was always telling me things like Im intelligent, I am funny and she even once told me on call that she loved me (she saw my face on videocall and shit). The day we meet up, I was so damn happy bro. I arrived and there she was, prolly like 5'1", I approach and when she notices me, she did like an "ew" expression, that expression that all foids do when they see me. I hugged her and the first thing she said to me is "you look different in photo, i thought you were taller" like bitch, what about a hello or sum??? The rest of the """date""" was horrible, I was very nervous because I really liked here and I didn't wanted to mess it up, so I dont know what to talk about, I tried to talk about things but she just called me fucking nerd and when I tried to talk about what does she like SHE SAID "why do you wanna know weirdo?". The date was terrible, I really liked her, but i guess im just very ugly for her, at least I hugged her. After the date I came back to my house, i didnt cry, i just lie down on bed and stared at my roof asking why the fuck am I so unlovable? I fell asleep, trying to imagine how would it feel to have someone laying down at my side and hugging me while she says to me "i love you", I guess I'll never know.
