When your life turns into a living hell, you start questioning your entire existence. You start asking why? How did I get here? Why did my life turn out that way?
I think it all can be traced back to the time when I was 7 years old. That was when all it kicked off; back then I was the weird, ugly kid which turned me into a subject of mockery at school. Over the years, I tried to convince myself that looks did not matter. I was so desperate to find the real reason behind my suffering, but I didn't want it to be my looks (cope, right?). I used to muse such thoughts each night when I'm laying alone in bed while others are out partying, having fun, or even having sex. It always bothered me that I was excluded. But what bothered me more was the WHY? Why am I being excluded?
I did everything I possibly could to fit into society, but I always got rejected - I was always treated like scum, it was baffling beyond reckoning. I supported their degenerate agendas, hoping that'll make me a part of society, I treated everyone with the utmost respect only to see those exact same people screw me over and betray me. And for what? For some girl they never had a chance with? That was the moment it dawned on me - it's women that are causing my suffering. The sole reason I was bullied so much at school is because other guys wanted to assert their dominance. And the best way to do that is by putting the weaklings down; by preying on the weak, defeated individuals you can show how strong and alpha you are. Surprisingly (that was surprising to my blue pilled brain at the time), that was appealing to women! Women liked these types of individuals, they gave them pussy, love, and respected them more than they ever respected me. Regardless of how abusive they were. The bullying I was subjected to forced me to withdraw from society. I started to avoid humans all together, because every time I opened my mouth, I was ridiculed and harassed mercilessly. Moreover, women have never shown any interest in me due to my appearance which only exacerbated my feelings of insecurity and lowered my self esteem even more.
To conclude, I firmly believe that most of my suffering on this earth was due to the fact that I'm unattractive to women. It's like domino pieces; women not liking me led to bullying (and involuntary celibacy) which led to low self esteem and anxiety, which in turn, led to isolation. And isolation triggered mental issues. Now I'm stuck in this insufferable, lonely hell we call life, with no hope left. All of my dreams were shattered to pieces by women. Therefore, I think that my anger towards them is justified.
What do you guys think? Do you agree?
I think it all can be traced back to the time when I was 7 years old. That was when all it kicked off; back then I was the weird, ugly kid which turned me into a subject of mockery at school. Over the years, I tried to convince myself that looks did not matter. I was so desperate to find the real reason behind my suffering, but I didn't want it to be my looks (cope, right?). I used to muse such thoughts each night when I'm laying alone in bed while others are out partying, having fun, or even having sex. It always bothered me that I was excluded. But what bothered me more was the WHY? Why am I being excluded?
I did everything I possibly could to fit into society, but I always got rejected - I was always treated like scum, it was baffling beyond reckoning. I supported their degenerate agendas, hoping that'll make me a part of society, I treated everyone with the utmost respect only to see those exact same people screw me over and betray me. And for what? For some girl they never had a chance with? That was the moment it dawned on me - it's women that are causing my suffering. The sole reason I was bullied so much at school is because other guys wanted to assert their dominance. And the best way to do that is by putting the weaklings down; by preying on the weak, defeated individuals you can show how strong and alpha you are. Surprisingly (that was surprising to my blue pilled brain at the time), that was appealing to women! Women liked these types of individuals, they gave them pussy, love, and respected them more than they ever respected me. Regardless of how abusive they were. The bullying I was subjected to forced me to withdraw from society. I started to avoid humans all together, because every time I opened my mouth, I was ridiculed and harassed mercilessly. Moreover, women have never shown any interest in me due to my appearance which only exacerbated my feelings of insecurity and lowered my self esteem even more.
To conclude, I firmly believe that most of my suffering on this earth was due to the fact that I'm unattractive to women. It's like domino pieces; women not liking me led to bullying (and involuntary celibacy) which led to low self esteem and anxiety, which in turn, led to isolation. And isolation triggered mental issues. Now I'm stuck in this insufferable, lonely hell we call life, with no hope left. All of my dreams were shattered to pieces by women. Therefore, I think that my anger towards them is justified.
What do you guys think? Do you agree?
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