View: https://youtu.be/q08u1Xp5fNM?feature=shared
Californiaaa, Californiaaaaaaaa
I was watching this when i was 13 stuck in a psychiatric hospital. It used to be super comforting. Now at 30 with my life being over it hits different but the feels remain. I was depressed and scared as fuck that i was gonna stay there forever, felt like my mom abandoned me and was lying to me.
My admission happened in the heart of summer so the whole unit was completely deserted for the first week, it felt so dystopian and there was nothing to do, potent suifuel, i was crying and howling with pain like some animal.
Then in the first days of despaired wandering i found a big room with some random shit like gym mats, a static bicycle, traffic cones... but also blankets, cushions and a tv that i would watch on my fortune bed and this show would always be broadcasted right before the Simpsons which was the real star of the evening but i've come to like it by having to sit through it every time.As a teen with my whole life ahead of me i could watch those rich assholes and feel like i could relate to them in some way
Californiaaaa
Californiaaaaaaaaa
Ooohhhhh
