Note: By "middle school" I mean Polish "gimnazjum" where children between the ages of 13 and 16 were (the system changed a few years ago) taught.
My recall of my past is very limited. It's probably a defense mechanism, because I'd die of cringe otherwise. Sometimes I randomly remember something and today it was my short-lived anti-sexual "cult" which I started in middle school.
As you may remember from my previous posts, I've been hating the concept of sex, both the act and the human sub-category (i. e. gender), ever since I'd learned about it. It makes little sense when you consider that my parents were very liberal (for 00s Poland standards) and sex-positive, but perhaps it was my way of rebelling against them or I just was high IQ for my age and realized some facts of life very early on.
I started the cult around the beginning of middle school. My middle school class was mostly children with whom I attended elementary school (I lived in a small/middle-sized town, so transferring a whole class like that was popular). I think I made it in reaction to the changes I saw around me, i. e. boys hitting puberty and becoming detestable simps who abandoned their male friends for a promise of pussy.
The entire thing lasted less than one year, about one semester (4/5 months). I've never really had friends, but there were a few other losers with whom I sometimes talked during breaks. 2 of them and me were the core of the cult and there was also one ultra-religious guy (who seemed to try to be my friend, but his religiousness was annoying, he only wanted to "befriend" me to convert me to Catholicism/Christianity) who had some interest in it and a girl (who was friends with that religious guy and we knew each other from kindergarten where we were friends, but she became degenerate when puberty hit) who also sometimes talked with us about it.
In some ways I independently invented some SJW ideas which I had no way of learning about, because it was a Polish town in 00s, where the limits of tolerance was allowing homos to live. The cult postulated complete abolishment of sexual distinction in culture, treatment and preferably eventually even on biological level. I coined the phrase "sexual Apartheid", describing situations where genders are separated, like sports or toilets. I considered gender an obstacle in the unification of mankind (at that time I was learning Esperanto and was really into unifying mankind). I advocated for gender-neutral language like calling people "person" or "human" instead of "man" or "woman" (and saying "this person" instead of "he" and "she").
Since the source of all this stuff was sexual dimorphism and sexuality (i. e. sexual acts) itself I considered disgusting, it was a major part of the cult. This is the part where it gets really cultish and I became more radical in this regard as time went on, eventually ending the "cult". I started with "sex only for procreation" approach, but later discouraged any form of sex, instead advocating in-vitro fertilization. I discouraged masturbation or even sexual thoughts and even perceiving someone as "a girl" instead of "a human" was considered "sexual". Of course, on this basis I rejected relationships, because if you wouldn't do it with a same-sex friend, you shouldn't do it with someone of different gender (at the time I started learning about communism and discovered the idea of communal upbringing of children). I made a pact with these two other losers to stay virgin (not counting in-vitro fertilization) forever.
The last straw that broke the camel's back was me advocating to boycott (shun) anyone engaging in "sexualism" like having relationships or accepting having sex as an option. Even the losers claimed I was weird and stopped talking to me (and started simping for foids). The religious guy and the foid were kinda on the side and not present for my more extremist phrase, so they kept talking to me. Fortunately they haven't told any adult or anything (well, we didn't do anything illegal, but I can see this being categorized as dangerous behavior).
Anyway, that's a nice blast from the past. I guess I underestimate my autism sometimes, because this was quite a period. I guess I cursed myself into inceldom with that virginity pact.
My recall of my past is very limited. It's probably a defense mechanism, because I'd die of cringe otherwise. Sometimes I randomly remember something and today it was my short-lived anti-sexual "cult" which I started in middle school.
As you may remember from my previous posts, I've been hating the concept of sex, both the act and the human sub-category (i. e. gender), ever since I'd learned about it. It makes little sense when you consider that my parents were very liberal (for 00s Poland standards) and sex-positive, but perhaps it was my way of rebelling against them or I just was high IQ for my age and realized some facts of life very early on.
I started the cult around the beginning of middle school. My middle school class was mostly children with whom I attended elementary school (I lived in a small/middle-sized town, so transferring a whole class like that was popular). I think I made it in reaction to the changes I saw around me, i. e. boys hitting puberty and becoming detestable simps who abandoned their male friends for a promise of pussy.
The entire thing lasted less than one year, about one semester (4/5 months). I've never really had friends, but there were a few other losers with whom I sometimes talked during breaks. 2 of them and me were the core of the cult and there was also one ultra-religious guy (who seemed to try to be my friend, but his religiousness was annoying, he only wanted to "befriend" me to convert me to Catholicism/Christianity) who had some interest in it and a girl (who was friends with that religious guy and we knew each other from kindergarten where we were friends, but she became degenerate when puberty hit
) who also sometimes talked with us about it.In some ways I independently invented some SJW ideas which I had no way of learning about, because it was a Polish town in 00s, where the limits of tolerance was allowing homos to live.
The cult postulated complete abolishment of sexual distinction in culture, treatment and preferably eventually even on biological level. I coined the phrase "sexual Apartheid", describing situations where genders are separated, like sports or toilets. I considered gender an obstacle in the unification of mankind (at that time I was learning Esperanto and was really into unifying mankind). I advocated for gender-neutral language like calling people "person" or "human" instead of "man" or "woman" (and saying "this person" instead of "he" and "she").Since the source of all this stuff was sexual dimorphism and sexuality (i. e. sexual acts) itself I considered disgusting, it was a major part of the cult. This is the part where it gets really cultish and I became more radical in this regard as time went on, eventually ending the "cult". I started with "sex only for procreation" approach, but later discouraged any form of sex, instead advocating in-vitro fertilization. I discouraged masturbation or even sexual thoughts and even perceiving someone as "a girl" instead of "a human" was considered "sexual". Of course, on this basis I rejected relationships, because if you wouldn't do it with a same-sex friend, you shouldn't do it with someone of different gender (at the time I started learning about communism and discovered the idea of communal upbringing of children). I made a pact with these two other losers to stay virgin (not counting in-vitro fertilization) forever.
The last straw that broke the camel's back was me advocating to boycott (shun) anyone engaging in "sexualism" like having relationships or accepting having sex as an option. Even the losers claimed I was weird and stopped talking to me (and started simping for foids). The religious guy and the foid were kinda on the side and not present for my more extremist phrase, so they kept talking to me. Fortunately they haven't told any adult or anything (well, we didn't do anything illegal, but I can see this being categorized as dangerous behavior
).Anyway, that's a nice blast from the past. I guess I underestimate my autism sometimes, because this was quite a period.
I guess I cursed myself into inceldom with that virginity pact. 
