When I was 16, I was very socially anxious but had the urge to have some company as I did not even have male friends, so I went on Instagram and texted a girl on one of these "searchinglove" pages where girls post a short personal description and mention what they are looking for in a guy. I texted one girl and I have to say that I did not find her attractive at all. She was also 16 and very desperate apparently. She never had close contact to a boy, so she was a virgin. She told me that she wanted to do these gay couple pics. I was repulsed by that but whatever, I was also desperate.
I hesitated to send pictures, because I was very self-aware of my ugliness. She started to like me before I sent pictures, which is very crucial. I sent her frauded pictures with snapchat filters that hid my subhumanity very well.
Coincidentally, she lived only 150km away from me, so we decided to meet up. I am a poor pupil, but I spent 50€ anyways to get a train to get to her. While being on that short trip, I really couldn't control my anxiety.
I showered for a hour, brushed my teeth for half an hour and all that, yet I was so afraid of smelling bad. I was so anxious I didn't eat anything at all that day. I left the train one stop too early, so her family had to drive to pick me up. It was so awkward. Her parents obviously thought I was weird, because I didn't say anything, but they were nice to me. We arrived at her home and it was awkward as fuck. She instantly sat on her bed and texted her female friend and was close to crying probably because she had different expectations. We planned to party because it was New Years evening, but she wanted me to leave at around 10pm. They drove me home and I arrived at home at 11:30pm. Later I watched the fireworks and went to bed. I was so humiliated.
The day after she made her female friend insult me via WhatsApp.
So, this was pretty much when I realized it was over for me.
However, today I created a new account to be able to visit her Instagram page. She has a boyfriend who she's been with for over a year now. She has posted some pictures with him.
The guy is a manlet. A manlet. Lifefuel for me.
I always thought I was not enough for her, not tall enough. He is so beta. I know for sure he gets dominated and controlled by her because she is a psychopathic dominant bitch.
I hesitated to send pictures, because I was very self-aware of my ugliness. She started to like me before I sent pictures, which is very crucial. I sent her frauded pictures with snapchat filters that hid my subhumanity very well.
Coincidentally, she lived only 150km away from me, so we decided to meet up. I am a poor pupil, but I spent 50€ anyways to get a train to get to her. While being on that short trip, I really couldn't control my anxiety.
I showered for a hour, brushed my teeth for half an hour and all that, yet I was so afraid of smelling bad. I was so anxious I didn't eat anything at all that day. I left the train one stop too early, so her family had to drive to pick me up. It was so awkward. Her parents obviously thought I was weird, because I didn't say anything, but they were nice to me. We arrived at her home and it was awkward as fuck. She instantly sat on her bed and texted her female friend and was close to crying probably because she had different expectations. We planned to party because it was New Years evening, but she wanted me to leave at around 10pm. They drove me home and I arrived at home at 11:30pm. Later I watched the fireworks and went to bed. I was so humiliated.
The day after she made her female friend insult me via WhatsApp.
So, this was pretty much when I realized it was over for me.
However, today I created a new account to be able to visit her Instagram page. She has a boyfriend who she's been with for over a year now. She has posted some pictures with him.
The guy is a manlet. A manlet. Lifefuel for me.
I always thought I was not enough for her, not tall enough. He is so beta. I know for sure he gets dominated and controlled by her because she is a psychopathic dominant bitch.
