SuicideFuel I Slept With An Escort

[Michael15651]

I finally did it guys. And I hated it.

Backstory: I’ve been on this site since 2017. Been a kissless virgin before this. No girl has or will ever be interested in me. I’m getting older and the people who have used to be on this site ascended years ago.

I started doing anabolic steroids 3 weeks ago. More specifically, (Trenbolone Acetate). It’s the steroid of steroids. Why does this matter?

Because it increases your libido by 1,000%. All you think about are girls 24/7. It also shoots up your strength and confidence. So I took the plunge.

Contacted an escort of a site, we agreed on a price (way too much but I was desperate).

She drove an hour to meet me. When she came I confessed I was a virgin and she told me to lay down. (I could already tell she wasn’t feeling it).

I laid down, she put a condom on me and gave me a blowjob that lasted under a minute. (I didn’t feel anything).

I told her to do missionary and she obliged, I put my cock inside of her and began fucking her. (Again, I felt nothing).

She was moaning the faster I went so I picked up on that. We swapped between doggy and missionary but I felt nothing. It could’ve been the condom.

Anyways 45 minutes in of me practically doing all the work (no breaks), I took my dick out and apparently the condom broke. (I never felt it).

She said she couldn’t do it and went to the bathroom to clean up. When she came back she said she was gonna head out.

I didn’t even get to finish. The deal was until I cum, I never got to.

I texted her and she responded an hour later, “Your not a virgin. And on top of that the condom broke, I don’t do all that. I’ll leave immediately.”

I legit didn’t mean for it to break. I don’t get why I would want to have kids with a whore or how I would even make it break.

I felt and still feel so disappointed and angry. I thought losing my virginity would help but it didn’t. Now I’m just a fucking meat head who does steroids and pays for hookers. Imagine post but clarity x10.

Maybe because there was no emotion behind it. Maybe it was because she left before I came. Maybe because it wasn’t special and someone who cared for me.

Whatever it is, I feel so empty.

 

[PersonalityChad]

Well, congratulations on losing your V card i guess

 

[CruxGammata]

Michael15651 Michael15651 Destined Virgin.

 

[DonezoTheClown]

Sounds like she sucks at her job. How much did you pay?

 

[IncelusRex]

Trenbolone Acetate

May I ask where do you acquire such a drug?

 

[OutcompetedByRoomba]

@OutcompetedByRoomba you might find interest in this

sure do, thanks

 

[Fat Link]

I finally did it guys. And I hated it.

Backstory: I’ve been on this site since 2017. Been a kissless virgin before this. No girl has or will ever be interested in me. I’m getting older and the people who have used to be on this site ascended years ago.

I started doing anabolic steroids 3 weeks ago. More specifically, (Trenbolone Acetate). It’s the steroid of steroids. Why does this matter?

Because it increases your libido by 1,000%. All you think about are girls 24/7. It also shoots up your strength and confidence. So I took the plunge.

Contacted an escort of a site, we agreed on a price (way too much but I was desperate).

She drove an hour to meet me. When she came I confessed I was a virgin and she told me to lay down. (I could already tell she wasn’t feeling it).

I laid down, she put a condom on me and gave me a blowjob that lasted under a minute. (I didn’t feel anything).

I told her to do missionary and she obliged, I put my cock inside of her and began fucking her. (Again, I felt nothing).

She was moaning the faster I went so I picked up on that. We swapped between doggy and missionary but I felt nothing. It could’ve been the condom.

Anyways 45 minutes in of me practically doing all the work (no breaks), I took my dick out and apparently the condom broke. (I never felt it).

She said she couldn’t do it and went to the bathroom to clean up. When she came back she said she was gonna head out.

I didn’t even get to finish. The deal was until I cum, I never got to.

I texted her and she responded an hour later, “Your not a virgin. And on top of that the condom broke, I don’t do all that. I’ll leave immediately.”

I legit didn’t mean for it to break. I don’t get why I would want to have kids with a whore or how I would even make it break.

I felt and still feel so disappointed and angry. I thought losing my virginity would help but it didn’t. Now I’m just a fucking meat head who does steroids and pays for hookers. Imagine post but clarity x10.

Maybe because there was no emotion behind it. Maybe it was because she left before I came. Maybe because it wasn’t special and someone who cared for me.

Whatever it is, I feel so empty.

You didn’t feel anything most likely because you‘re used to your own grip on your man meat after all these years which is tighter than a used up Foid whore quite obviously.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

i never thought prostitution would be good unless you paid so much that it's not worth it. sounds about right tbh.

I texted her and she responded an hour later, “Your not a virgin. And on top of that the condom broke, I don’t do all that. I’ll leave immediately.”

lol. i wouldn't expect women to act any different. we hear all the time about their entitlement. it should be expected that if anything bad happens they react as if it's your fault automatically. no way outta this one either.

 

[Awake]

what made her think you weren't a virgin? Do you look tall with a low normie face?

 

[mrlunatic]

Ok but what were u doing all this time? Self improvement maxxing? And did u get ripped ?

 

[CopeHarderNow]

ok

 

[OutcompetedByRoomba]

I finally did it guys. And I hated it.

Backstory: I’ve been on this site since 2017. Been a kissless virgin before this. No girl has or will ever be interested in me. I’m getting older and the people who have used to be on this site ascended years ago.

I started doing anabolic steroids 3 weeks ago. More specifically, (Trenbolone Acetate). It’s the steroid of steroids. Why does this matter?

Because it increases your libido by 1,000%. All you think about are girls 24/7. It also shoots up your strength and confidence. So I took the plunge.

Contacted an escort of a site, we agreed on a price (way too much but I was desperate).

She drove an hour to meet me. When she came I confessed I was a virgin and she told me to lay down. (I could already tell she wasn’t feeling it).

I laid down, she put a condom on me and gave me a blowjob that lasted under a minute. (I didn’t feel anything).

I told her to do missionary and she obliged, I put my cock inside of her and began fucking her. (Again, I felt nothing).

She was moaning the faster I went so I picked up on that. We swapped between doggy and missionary but I felt nothing. It could’ve been the condom.

Anyways 45 minutes in of me practically doing all the work (no breaks), I took my dick out and apparently the condom broke. (I never felt it).

She said she couldn’t do it and went to the bathroom to clean up. When she came back she said she was gonna head out.

I didn’t even get to finish. The deal was until I cum, I never got to.

I texted her and she responded an hour later, “Your not a virgin. And on top of that the condom broke, I don’t do all that. I’ll leave immediately.”

I legit didn’t mean for it to break. I don’t get why I would want to have kids with a whore or how I would even make it break.

I felt and still feel so disappointed and angry. I thought losing my virginity would help but it didn’t. Now I’m just a fucking meat head who does steroids and pays for hookers. Imagine post but clarity x10.

Maybe because there was no emotion behind it. Maybe it was because she left before I came. Maybe because it wasn’t special and someone who cared for me.

Whatever it is, I feel so empty.

Are you in the USA / somewhere where this is illegal and therefore harder to do? And how pricy was it for one hour?

I think you could consider this not actually your first real time, since you didn't even finish, and try again and forget this ever happened. One bad hour with a whore doesn't have to define the rest of your sex life. Even if that sex is payed for.

I'm in the process of selecting an escort for my first time where I live. here it's legal and I have found people that specialize in disabled, crippled and similar cases. But they also take "absolute beginners" and autsits.

They are usually much less attractive but in exchange they are more loving / caring in how they deal with you. Supposedly.

I'm thinking of having my first time with one of these (often a bit more mature) women.

I would be curious if you have realized what prevented you from cooming? Did it work the second you were alone by yourself?

 

[CopeHarderNow]

Sex is meaningless if you don't love her and she doesn't love you

 

[MillionBashStream97]

I don't know why she told you that you aren't a virgin...

What made her say that?...

Either way, sorry about your experience...

 

[LeFrenchCel]

Sounds like she sucks at her job.

Quite literally

 

[CrackingYs]

Sounds about right. Escorts are like a trip to the doctors office. It's just awkward as fuck.

 

[1nsomniak]

Have you been watching a lot of porn?

 

[Michael15651]

May I ask where do you acquire such a drug?

DM me

what made her think you weren't a virgin? Do you look tall with a low normie face?

No, maybe because I lasted so long and took the role. Like I expected to last maybe 2 minutes but my dick was desensitized. Also, I was the one telling her what to do even though I was the one without experience.

Ok but what were u doing all this time? Self improvement maxxing? And did u get ripped ?

For me personally I can’t workout without taking PEDS. I chose Tren because it’s literally the biggest rapid mass gainer and gives you the confidence and strength of a god. (There are tons of stories online about it of how guys would fuck girls multiple times a day on it because it makes you so fucking horny, cocky, and just “masculine” in general).

 

[WAFFLEMASTER205]

congrats brother the incel community is celebrating your acheivements.

 

[Mike]

How much was it? Will you do it again?

 

[DonezoTheClown]

Quite literally

 

[Rotter]

Brutal and highly relatable, the first and only time I saw it escort almost drove me to suicide

 

[DonezoTheClown]

No, maybe because I lasted so long and took the role. Like I expected to last maybe 2 minutes but my dick was desensitized. Also, I was the one telling her what to do even though I was the one without experience.

Why didn't you tell her to suck your dick longer? Or tell her to give your money back if she's gonna leave without finishing? You need to up that dose bloody buddy, not confident/cocky enough.

For me personally I can’t workout without taking PEDS. I chose Tren because it’s literally the biggest rapid mass gainer and gives you the confidence and strength of a god. (There are tons of stories online about it of how guys would fuck girls multiple times a day on it because it makes you so fucking horny, cocky, and just “masculine” in general).

What are the negative side-effects?

Also yeah maybe you just jerk off too much? How long did you not jerk off for before you saw her? I would try to do nofap for at least a week before seeing one.

 

[StefiBeaLipton]

You didn’t feel anything most likely because you‘re used to your own grip on your man meat after all these years which is tighter than a used up Foid whore quite obviously.

Gorilla grip or nothing.

 

[lifeisfucked215]

Why didn't you tell her to suck your dick longer? Or tell her to give your money back if she's gonna leave without finishing? You need to up that dose bloody buddy, not confident/cocky enough.

What are the negative side-effects?

Also yeah maybe you just jerk off too much? How long did you not jerk off for before you saw her? I would try to do nofap for at least a week before seeing one.

Exactly this. You need to boss that whore around more. They usually like that. She was probably pissed that the condom broke. Also a covered blowjob? Did you actually agree to that? Covered bj fucking sucks

 

[RuudVanNistelrooy]

Next time take Viagra 30 mins before.

 

[Rabbi Schneerson]

Your not a virgin

 

[Michael15651]

Why didn't you tell her to suck your dick longer? Or tell her to give your money back if she's gonna leave without finishing? You need to up that dose bloody buddy, not confident/cocky enough.

What are the negative side-effects?

Also yeah maybe you just jerk off too much? How long did you not jerk off for before you saw her? I would try to do nofap for at least a week before seeing one.

It’s funny I actually upped it today. Because after like 30 seconds she stopped and looked at me like she expected me to say or do something so I was like, “let’s try missionary.”

I didn’t jerk off or anything beforehand. I just took 1 cialis because it came with the roids. Not sure if it did anything or not.

It’s a 8 week cycle and then take a break. So far the first two weeks is mainly all mental. (You feel more possessive, violent nightmares everyday, impatient with people, avoid people if you can unless you’re trying to fuck a girl, and thinking about girls 24/7).

 

[Michael15651]

Next time take Viagra 30 mins before.

I took a cialis

 

[NorthernWind]

Visiting escorts is a bad idea.

 

[Maikowski]

I had a similar experience except I've tried with 4 different hookers, I can't feel anything or cum

 

[suicidecase]

Why did you pay her, you gigacuck? You should also have unloaded on her after she sent you that text.

Blowjob and sex with a condom is utterly pointless, I wouldn't even count it as sex, I'd still consider myself a virgin. You should have just had her give you a proper blowjob or handjob, that way you don't have to worry about her enjoying it. If I was to go this route I'd try to find a cam girl or a regular girl I could turn into a hooker, genuine hookers are disgusting and soulless, and STI factories.

 

[Tajincel]

Are you from muttland? Japanese escort girls are great. I only escortmaxx when I travel since it's illegal in my country (frogistan)

 

[greggymex7]

Bye bye

 

[asocialcel]

Oh God this is so brutal

 

[TheCatMan]

God I hope that doesn't happen to me for my first time.

 

[FrothySolutions]

Why didn't you tell her to suck your dick longer? Or tell her to give your money back if she's gonna leave without finishing? You need to up that dose bloody buddy, not confident/cocky enough.

What are the negative side-effects?

Also yeah maybe you just jerk off too much? How long did you not jerk off for before you saw her? I would try to do nofap for at least a week before seeing one.

Tren??? It's like the worst PED you can take. It's for cows and horses. Tren will fuck your shit up.

 

[NeverEvenBegan]

That sucks, man. I am also a kissless virgin at 29 and I know at this point escorts are my only chance of not dying a virgin.

Not being able to feel anything is one of my greatest fears, especially after like 15 years of daily death grip masturbation. I would likely not feel anything, either. So I was thinking I should just ask her for a death grip handjob. Any escort should be willing to give a condomless handjob, right? And it would guarantee you can feel something.

 

[ElTruecel]

Nice

 

[Mainländer]

I never slept with an escort. Since it costs money, I think it's better to try to stay awake during the experience.

 

[OwariDa]

Taking tren? Holy shit dude

 

[Zetta]

I'll add this to the 20,000 reasons why I will never whoremaxx, thanks. Your sacrifice will not be forgotten.

 

[Ahnfeltia]

Sorry to hear it boyo.

 

[zephyr]

She drove an hour to meet me.

That must have been a Tense feeling.

 

[Gokubro]

That's why prostitution must be illegal.

 

[Mike]

Is whoremaxing a form of ascension or just a deeper level of cope?

 

[Michael15651]

Tren??? It's like the worst PED you can take. It's for cows and horses. Tren will fuck your shit up.

People see me as an unlovable monster. I might as well transform myself into a freak of nature or die trying.

 

[AlreadyLost]

Holy shit. How can someone fuck and not feel anything? Is that normal? Whores are legal and pretty cheap in my country, so I have been thinking about trying that, too. Now I kind of don't want to anymore. Finally getting to fuck and then not feeling anything would be even more depressing than not fucking at all.

Also dude you really need an STD test. Who knows what diseases that whore carries around with her.

 

[Mentally lost cel]

You didn’t feel anything most likely because you‘re used to your own grip on your man meat after all these years which is tighter than a used up Foid whore quite obviously.

this s very true

 

[TBIcel]

You didn’t feel anything most likely because you‘re used to your own grip on your man meat after all these years which is tighter than a used up Foid whore quite obviously.

This is a fair point and I tend to grip pretty hard in all fairness so doubt a toilet would make me cum. Guess doesn't matter as I'm too high inhib to fuck an escort (im 30 and KHHV) I've told myself I would one day many times setting it for a specific birthday 20, 21, 24, 25, 27, 28, 29 then before 30 but never did.