For TLDR ->
If AI ever gets good enough I will eventually create a whole ass 4+ hours movie about MY LIFE EXPERIENCE GROWING UP.
If some of you have read some of my major past life posts: I have been through hell.
I have been bullied and harassed at age 1 to 6 by two specific Kindergarten teachers - one who eventually was laid off after it happened again to ANOTHER boy when I was already several years out of that hell.
I have been brutalized by insane levels of sociopath kids where NONE of these Kindergarten teachers - mid 30s btw - were present. I and many other children were groomed by her, I did not tell my parents at that age btw.
Furthermore one time I got into some kinda trouble with another psycho kid who suddenly attacked me and he had like CLAWS for fingers. He had long as Finger nails and ripped and scratched my face apart I was only able to save myself from stabbing a plastic scissor from my pocket into his eye - were he got blind eventually. He left that Kindergarten unfortunately I met him several times throughout my life were he went full psycho on me.
I had scars on my face that needed to heal and faint for 10+ years+!!!
At least hes half way blind - btw he went to juveline prison at age 16.
That was just ONE of many horrors that happened in kindergarten to me. Throughout the 6 years in kindergarten I needed to be operated a whooping 10 times, with 10 major wounds and 1 SEVERE concussion - the concussion stammed from a stone that a kid pulled out of the Sand pit and threw in the air and it landed on my head - I was half-conscious and was sitting for 3 hours on a chair not speaking a word, when my mom arrived to get me, she took of my cappie hat and a blood-fountain spilled over my face. The stone was STILL part ways engraved in my skull - I have had a small BALDING Spot on my head EVER since - its not male balding I had that from that moment on, hair rarely grew on that scared Spot.
That event probably made me so "schizophren" in the first place. Surprisingly I became quite schizophren afterwards if I remember correctly, I saw all kinds of monsters and entities running around that werent there. Wasnt just fantasy if I think about it.
Anyway enough with Kindergarten stories - in Elementary I finally got my first tastes of how nasty some girls were. Girls I was usually "friends" with.
We were kids, understandable but you wont belive the amount of times girls ratted me out and told lies in front of the teachers.
Good thing Elementary was just "average guy" experience. Not even COMPARABLY to the disaster that happened in early Highschool (which in germany we skip middle school and Highschool starts at age 10/11).
The levels of BULLYING I went through are SO unbelivable that some people later on in life, including BOTH psychatrists I went to in my 20s DID NOT BELIVE THE STORIES.
I always love when I hear "bullying-stories" and think to myself "What a joke, grow some fucking balls".
Still, I don't want to undermine anyones experience here compared to mine and I know bullying is present more so then ever, especially for Gen Z and all people have different levels of mental strenght and stamina.........buuuuuut I was nearly murdered 4 times - 2 times by the same kid. [Who was my supposed "best friend" who btw is in Prison as well right now and also was our "gang leader" at the time]
The ambulance needed to be called SO many times JUST FOR ME that underneath 700 children that visited the school I WAS THE MAIN KID WHOS NAME EVERYONE KNEW FOR ALL KINDS OF DIFFERENT REASONS.
Social Media wasnt much or a thing back then, there was MySpace and Facebook.
Everyone knew me by the time 8th grade came along. Even the new 5th graders. I always was bamboozeled why they knew me. Where? Who and what was told about me?
I was despised for all the wrong things: hobbies, voice, looks, jestermaxxing, how low wage my parents were, scientific interests, jestermaxxing (again), unstable character - especially the latter grew larger after I taughened up and grew the balls I needed to FIGHT AGAINST ANYONE.
Man I fucked bitches and niggers up (I made several posts about how much of a battle life my school life was I dont want to extend here) but yeah I needed to eventually come into school with weapons and all kinds of shit because kids were also all armed to the teeth, especially migrant kids.
And OMG did I distaste these Migrants especially Afghans, Niggers, Turks and Israeli. And they proved again and again and again to despite them.
Regardless I am not joking, it was a horror Show.
I eventually did not want to even go to that school as I SCREAMED AND RAGED IN AGONY AND ANXIETY in front of my parents. I could have been attacked. I could have been made into an idiot in front of the class by the teachers, like I've been so many times. Called literally stupid by Whore Teachers, disgusting hags despite being a 140 IQ A-grade Student!
Eventually in 8th grade my grades plummeted suddenly from A to E (crazy right) because I UNDERSTOOD SOMETHING!
The "power" that teachers hold in German schools are all virtual. None of these teachers ever helped me and didnt intend to help me! So I have "den Spieß umgedreht"! The power of these whores was GRADES and TADLES - with giving a shit about NONE of them, I was able to do and please whatever I wanted.
I started BULLYING my teachers in 8th grade I made a clown of them in front of everyone!
I have to admit I even stood up for some of my female classmates that got bullied by one particular hippy slut - I literally called her hippy slut the WHOLE schoolyear
in front of her face, she was another mentally sick, crazy and narcisstic women.
It was finally that POINT that my classmates actually kinda had some respect for me.
Every class unit we had with her was a "Jester Roasts Hippy Slut the whole 90 Minutes" entertainment Show!
It was something not even those motherfuckers dared.
Unfortunately it was in vain. I had to drop out and change school and none of my so called "friends" ever showed up again and tried to help me, rather when I called out to them I was ignored.
When I called a guy I was closer from class on the phone just 2 month into 9th grade what he told me was - and these words will refrain in my head forever:
"Yo Jester, guess what? JAKOB is now the kid getting bullied!"
Jakob...a Truecel kinda guy, but rather tall, usually kinda childish guy, he was apparently just next in line to be the teachers and students victim.
They literally just forgot about me and mentally 'switched' Jakob into my position.
I do not know what happened to Jakob, I only ever met him once again were we did not talk to each other.
I did not really know what happened to any of them besides the ones I could stalk down on Instagram over a decade later.
Surprisingly none wanted to be my friends and those that pretended to be my friends gave me up rather quickly.
There were SO many insane stories with any of them. You need to understand up to 8th grade I was a rather extroverted guy. I tried to establish a healthy relationship with anyone.
Unfortunately I was TOO kind. This class was a interwoven network of individualistic maniacs. Everyone - including me - was a MONSTER.
I am not joking, that class had the highest overall class GDP of any other class on that school. Everyone - besides few like me - came from high level families. It was a public school and yet every parent was a lawyery, doctor, manager, CEO, investment banker.
I was unable to compete and female teachers LOOOOOOVE female students more then male students.
I never stood a chance from the get go.
Even my Oneitis who I literally did everything for to win her over and yeah I did love her - at the time - but even after confessing 5 times I was rejected and ultimately turned into what I only now know of as a Prime-Orbiter.
Now if you think that this is the peak of my misery, 13/14 years into the making, starting to have evolved severe depression, being already born with ADHD and several chronic and genetic skin disases...
incels.is
...and left forgotten despite that everyone somehow knew me...
...it got worse!
I changed school - to a far of school - and upon arriving, the VERY first day, nobody there knew me - I was HATED from hello!
Quite literally, it took a whooping 30 minutes that someone in that class said OUT LOUD "this guy just made himself into the new class victim"...I stated my hobby...microbiology...apparently a Truecel trait being into microbs and having extensive knowledge of viruses, amobea, percolozoa...yup it didnt take more then literally showing up to go through the 11 worst REMEMBERED months of my life.
The worst part? I originally did NOT want to state my microbiology hobby as a introduction to my personality on day one - as I made the same fucking mistake years before in 5th grade!
incels.is
I stop here because Adolescence is about 13/14 yo kids usually 8th grade.
The main protagonist "Jamie" in that 4 hour Soy-Slop was going murder mode on a 13 yo classmate because she called him "Incel" on Instagram...
Meanwhile heres a little Story about a 13 yo girl in my second Highschool: As I was one year older then the others, despite being the shortest and child-like looking boy in the class as I hit puberty later then others.
Heres the :bullying method" that she conspired with a few boys to get me a sexual harassment charge the moment I turn 14. "Why?" you ask? Well simply to fuck over my future life- which means in Germany I am not off the charges for crimes at 14.
The boys were on her orders supposed to blackmail me into touching her boobsy they tried all kinds of methods to get me to touch her chest.
She would hav SCREAMED then and accused me of sexual harassment and would have even dropped charges against me and would have LIKELY even dragged that story in front of a judge. THAT is how crazy she was just to fuck me over.
OBVIOUSLY I was still big brain despite all the brainwashing efforts they tried to get me to grab her boobs, to not do that.
Well, she continued to blackmail and even cyberbully me.
Her cyberbulling against me went usually under the radar - yet she was still able to convince hundreds of people online what a nasty freak I am in just the very first month on that school and get a guy over facebook to grow a whole ass bottle of MOLD and try to shove that MOLDBALL down my throat on schoolyard in order to give me MOLDPOISONING - possibly killing me in the process.
I was barely strong enough to fend that stranger off and only days later it turned out SHE was behind that attempt to get a stranger to shove a fist full of Black mold down my throat.
Even my mother made fun of me by buying me "Diary of the Wimpy Kid".
Where THIS scene happens at the end:
It was like...even my own mom made fun of me.
But yeah THIS is the kind of shit I went through DAYS AND DAYS AND DAYS AND DAYS again MY ENTIRE CHILDHOOD up to the point I changed school again, there was not one day from age 1 to 14 were I was NOT getting made fun of or harassed, robbed, blackmailed or got an attempt on my life or my health with NOBODY listening to me and NOBODY understanding me.
And NO Andrew fucking Tate DID NOT EXIST. This character didnt exist, Instagram was a slideshow of pretty pics 12 years ago, Incels DID exist and will exist more so in the future and yet at that time "Mass Media Goyslop Incel Movies" did NOT exist.
But you know WHO existed? Me! Every single day, of my life, I existed and yet nobody called out upon my suffering.
So, how about we make a 4 hour Show out of this instead? - even tho I got at least 14 years of SPICY content! What too extreme? Then stop with the bullshit Anti-Incel propaganda Jewflix!
-> I know this is one of the largest and most extensive posts that I probably ever did and despite that I am probably also THE user who tries to bring in the most content heavy and extensive researched or fundamentally shocking real life "Incel Life" Story posts, but this one has no short Version as it is a direct insigh in my mind and my past experience that are very important to me and I DO belive that even tho my Story is on a whole ass other level of Social Neglect and Harassment, that yes, shocked even professional psychiatrists to the point they think I am repeating some kinda story I caught on a True Crime television Show, but these Events all happened and it was just a small outlook on the whole grid of "What in the actual fuck happened to this kid" but no matter what DID happen, I made it through it without laying my hands on a girl (except two particular times which were absolutely needed) let alone murder one and yes I do belive that there are German and Western Boys out there who have similar if not even WORSE experiences and are now continued to be made fun of in mass media and even hunted down in some countries for essentially having become basement dwellers from the lifes that they went through, whether its for looks, voice, money, genetics, interests, hobbies or hell even weird sexual fetishes - that still dont harm others in the grand sheme of things.
So id appreciate if you take the time on this one and read it in full lenght.
Especially shout out to these individuals:
@Grodd
@Stupid Clown
@LeFrenchCel
@Animecel2D
@LastGerman
@XtremeMax
@DarkStar
@Izayacel
If AI ever gets good enough I will eventually create a whole ass 4+ hours movie about MY LIFE EXPERIENCE GROWING UP.
If some of you have read some of my major past life posts: I have been through hell.
I have been bullied and harassed at age 1 to 6 by two specific Kindergarten teachers - one who eventually was laid off after it happened again to ANOTHER boy when I was already several years out of that hell.
I have been brutalized by insane levels of sociopath kids where NONE of these Kindergarten teachers - mid 30s btw - were present. I and many other children were groomed by her, I did not tell my parents at that age btw.
Furthermore one time I got into some kinda trouble with another psycho kid who suddenly attacked me and he had like CLAWS for fingers. He had long as Finger nails and ripped and scratched my face apart I was only able to save myself from stabbing a plastic scissor from my pocket into his eye - were he got blind eventually. He left that Kindergarten unfortunately I met him several times throughout my life were he went full psycho on me.
I had scars on my face that needed to heal and faint for 10+ years+!!!
At least hes half way blind - btw he went to juveline prison at age 16.
That was just ONE of many horrors that happened in kindergarten to me. Throughout the 6 years in kindergarten I needed to be operated a whooping 10 times, with 10 major wounds and 1 SEVERE concussion - the concussion stammed from a stone that a kid pulled out of the Sand pit and threw in the air and it landed on my head - I was half-conscious and was sitting for 3 hours on a chair not speaking a word, when my mom arrived to get me, she took of my cappie hat and a blood-fountain spilled over my face. The stone was STILL part ways engraved in my skull - I have had a small BALDING Spot on my head EVER since - its not male balding I had that from that moment on, hair rarely grew on that scared Spot.
That event probably made me so "schizophren" in the first place. Surprisingly I became quite schizophren afterwards if I remember correctly, I saw all kinds of monsters and entities running around that werent there. Wasnt just fantasy if I think about it.
Anyway enough with Kindergarten stories - in Elementary I finally got my first tastes of how nasty some girls were. Girls I was usually "friends" with.
We were kids, understandable but you wont belive the amount of times girls ratted me out and told lies in front of the teachers.
Good thing Elementary was just "average guy" experience. Not even COMPARABLY to the disaster that happened in early Highschool (which in germany we skip middle school and Highschool starts at age 10/11).
The levels of BULLYING I went through are SO unbelivable that some people later on in life, including BOTH psychatrists I went to in my 20s DID NOT BELIVE THE STORIES.
I always love when I hear "bullying-stories" and think to myself "What a joke, grow some fucking balls".
Still, I don't want to undermine anyones experience here compared to mine and I know bullying is present more so then ever, especially for Gen Z and all people have different levels of mental strenght and stamina.........buuuuuut I was nearly murdered 4 times - 2 times by the same kid. [Who was my supposed "best friend" who btw is in Prison as well right now and also was our "gang leader" at the time]
The ambulance needed to be called SO many times JUST FOR ME that underneath 700 children that visited the school I WAS THE MAIN KID WHOS NAME EVERYONE KNEW FOR ALL KINDS OF DIFFERENT REASONS.
Social Media wasnt much or a thing back then, there was MySpace and Facebook.
Everyone knew me by the time 8th grade came along. Even the new 5th graders. I always was bamboozeled why they knew me. Where? Who and what was told about me?
I was despised for all the wrong things: hobbies, voice, looks, jestermaxxing, how low wage my parents were, scientific interests, jestermaxxing (again), unstable character - especially the latter grew larger after I taughened up and grew the balls I needed to FIGHT AGAINST ANYONE.
Man I fucked bitches and niggers up (I made several posts about how much of a battle life my school life was I dont want to extend here) but yeah I needed to eventually come into school with weapons and all kinds of shit because kids were also all armed to the teeth, especially migrant kids.
And OMG did I distaste these Migrants especially Afghans, Niggers, Turks and Israeli. And they proved again and again and again to despite them.
Regardless I am not joking, it was a horror Show.
I eventually did not want to even go to that school as I SCREAMED AND RAGED IN AGONY AND ANXIETY in front of my parents. I could have been attacked. I could have been made into an idiot in front of the class by the teachers, like I've been so many times. Called literally stupid by Whore Teachers, disgusting hags despite being a 140 IQ A-grade Student!
Eventually in 8th grade my grades plummeted suddenly from A to E (crazy right) because I UNDERSTOOD SOMETHING!
The "power" that teachers hold in German schools are all virtual. None of these teachers ever helped me and didnt intend to help me! So I have "den Spieß umgedreht"! The power of these whores was GRADES and TADLES - with giving a shit about NONE of them, I was able to do and please whatever I wanted.
I started BULLYING my teachers in 8th grade I made a clown of them in front of everyone!
I have to admit I even stood up for some of my female classmates that got bullied by one particular hippy slut - I literally called her hippy slut the WHOLE schoolyear
in front of her face, she was another mentally sick, crazy and narcisstic women.It was finally that POINT that my classmates actually kinda had some respect for me.
Every class unit we had with her was a "Jester Roasts Hippy Slut the whole 90 Minutes" entertainment Show!
It was something not even those motherfuckers dared.
Unfortunately it was in vain. I had to drop out and change school and none of my so called "friends" ever showed up again and tried to help me, rather when I called out to them I was ignored.
When I called a guy I was closer from class on the phone just 2 month into 9th grade what he told me was - and these words will refrain in my head forever:
"Yo Jester, guess what? JAKOB is now the kid getting bullied!"
Jakob...a Truecel kinda guy, but rather tall, usually kinda childish guy, he was apparently just next in line to be the teachers and students victim.
They literally just forgot about me and mentally 'switched' Jakob into my position.
I do not know what happened to Jakob, I only ever met him once again were we did not talk to each other.
I did not really know what happened to any of them besides the ones I could stalk down on Instagram over a decade later.
Surprisingly none wanted to be my friends and those that pretended to be my friends gave me up rather quickly.
There were SO many insane stories with any of them. You need to understand up to 8th grade I was a rather extroverted guy. I tried to establish a healthy relationship with anyone.
Unfortunately I was TOO kind. This class was a interwoven network of individualistic maniacs. Everyone - including me - was a MONSTER.
I am not joking, that class had the highest overall class GDP of any other class on that school. Everyone - besides few like me - came from high level families. It was a public school and yet every parent was a lawyery, doctor, manager, CEO, investment banker.
I was unable to compete and female teachers LOOOOOOVE female students more then male students.
I never stood a chance from the get go.
Even my Oneitis who I literally did everything for to win her over and yeah I did love her - at the time - but even after confessing 5 times I was rejected and ultimately turned into what I only now know of as a Prime-Orbiter.
Now if you think that this is the peak of my misery, 13/14 years into the making, starting to have evolved severe depression, being already born with ADHD and several chronic and genetic skin disases...
Having skin diseases is the worst
I suffer from 7 genetic skin diseases, right now I have a severe eye eczema that I visited the dermatologist for, same day I needed to have a white skin cancer removed from my back, so now I have a stiched scar there soon once its healed, anyway the eczema seems to be chronic now I have made a...
incels.is
...and left forgotten despite that everyone somehow knew me...
...it got worse!
I changed school - to a far of school - and upon arriving, the VERY first day, nobody there knew me - I was HATED from hello!
Quite literally, it took a whooping 30 minutes that someone in that class said OUT LOUD "this guy just made himself into the new class victim"...I stated my hobby...microbiology...apparently a Truecel trait being into microbs and having extensive knowledge of viruses, amobea, percolozoa...yup it didnt take more then literally showing up to go through the 11 worst REMEMBERED months of my life.
The worst part? I originally did NOT want to state my microbiology hobby as a introduction to my personality on day one - as I made the same fucking mistake years before in 5th grade!
The moment I became a "Weirdo" - why I was bullied (not my looks)
Heres a story from the time I was in 5th Grade: Our Biology teacher was playing a game "Start with a big Animal and then go lower and asked another student to name a even smaller animal "Everyone in my class knew already I had an extremly weird hobby that is completely unusual to the normal 10...
incels.is
The main protagonist "Jamie" in that 4 hour Soy-Slop was going murder mode on a 13 yo classmate because she called him "Incel" on Instagram...
Meanwhile heres a little Story about a 13 yo girl in my second Highschool: As I was one year older then the others, despite being the shortest and child-like looking boy in the class as I hit puberty later then others.
Heres the :bullying method" that she conspired with a few boys to get me a sexual harassment charge the moment I turn 14. "Why?" you ask? Well simply to fuck over my future life- which means in Germany I am not off the charges for crimes at 14.
The boys were on her orders supposed to blackmail me into touching her boobsy they tried all kinds of methods to get me to touch her chest.
She would hav SCREAMED then and accused me of sexual harassment and would have even dropped charges against me and would have LIKELY even dragged that story in front of a judge. THAT is how crazy she was just to fuck me over.
OBVIOUSLY I was still big brain despite all the brainwashing efforts they tried to get me to grab her boobs, to not do that.
Well, she continued to blackmail and even cyberbully me.
Her cyberbulling against me went usually under the radar - yet she was still able to convince hundreds of people online what a nasty freak I am in just the very first month on that school and get a guy over facebook to grow a whole ass bottle of MOLD and try to shove that MOLDBALL down my throat on schoolyard in order to give me MOLDPOISONING - possibly killing me in the process.
I was barely strong enough to fend that stranger off and only days later it turned out SHE was behind that attempt to get a stranger to shove a fist full of Black mold down my throat.
Even my mother made fun of me by buying me "Diary of the Wimpy Kid".
Where THIS scene happens at the end:
It was like...even my own mom made fun of me.
But yeah THIS is the kind of shit I went through DAYS AND DAYS AND DAYS AND DAYS again MY ENTIRE CHILDHOOD up to the point I changed school again, there was not one day from age 1 to 14 were I was NOT getting made fun of or harassed, robbed, blackmailed or got an attempt on my life or my health with NOBODY listening to me and NOBODY understanding me.
And NO Andrew fucking Tate DID NOT EXIST. This character didnt exist, Instagram was a slideshow of pretty pics 12 years ago, Incels DID exist and will exist more so in the future and yet at that time "Mass Media Goyslop Incel Movies" did NOT exist.
But you know WHO existed? Me! Every single day, of my life, I existed and yet nobody called out upon my suffering.
So, how about we make a 4 hour Show out of this instead? - even tho I got at least 14 years of SPICY content! What too extreme? Then stop with the bullshit Anti-Incel propaganda Jewflix!
-> I know this is one of the largest and most extensive posts that I probably ever did and despite that I am probably also THE user who tries to bring in the most content heavy and extensive researched or fundamentally shocking real life "Incel Life" Story posts, but this one has no short Version as it is a direct insigh in my mind and my past experience that are very important to me and I DO belive that even tho my Story is on a whole ass other level of Social Neglect and Harassment, that yes, shocked even professional psychiatrists to the point they think I am repeating some kinda story I caught on a True Crime television Show, but these Events all happened and it was just a small outlook on the whole grid of "What in the actual fuck happened to this kid" but no matter what DID happen, I made it through it without laying my hands on a girl (except two particular times which were absolutely needed) let alone murder one and yes I do belive that there are German and Western Boys out there who have similar if not even WORSE experiences and are now continued to be made fun of in mass media and even hunted down in some countries for essentially having become basement dwellers from the lifes that they went through, whether its for looks, voice, money, genetics, interests, hobbies or hell even weird sexual fetishes - that still dont harm others in the grand sheme of things.
So id appreciate if you take the time on this one and read it in full lenght.
Especially shout out to these individuals:
@Grodd
@Stupid Clown
@LeFrenchCel
@Animecel2D
@LastGerman
@XtremeMax
@DarkStar
@Izayacel
