I used to be a rather academically successful kid in school. I never saw school as a place to socialize, I only saw it as a place to learn, so I never developed any sort of relationship. And by the time when I noticed that I was socially retarded, it was too late and I was essentially treated as a lolcow. So I didn't approach people because I don't like being made fun of. And so they made fun of me more because I got more and more socially retarded.
Shockingly, a mistake made by a 5-year-old me has essentially ruined my life. I'm in college now, I am slightly better off than average, but still can't talk to a man, let alone a woman. Hell, I can barely talk to strangers in the internet.
In the puzzle of life, I am a circle. I don't fit anywhere.
I don't know what to do, I can just keep studying and luckily land a job, but then? I'm not going to have a wife and kids, I'm not going to have friends to spend my free time with, I'm not going to be happy.
I don't like people, yet I don't want to be alone. I'm but a walking paradox. I only live because I'm afraid of death.
Shockingly, a mistake made by a 5-year-old me has essentially ruined my life. I'm in college now, I am slightly better off than average, but still can't talk to a man, let alone a woman. Hell, I can barely talk to strangers in the internet.
In the puzzle of life, I am a circle. I don't fit anywhere.
I don't know what to do, I can just keep studying and luckily land a job, but then? I'm not going to have a wife and kids, I'm not going to have friends to spend my free time with, I'm not going to be happy.
I don't like people, yet I don't want to be alone. I'm but a walking paradox. I only live because I'm afraid of death.
