She was really cute too. Short (<5'0 which is ideal because I'm a 5'5 manlet), short haired, brunette, kinda chubby, nerdy (she wore a twitch.tv jacket to school several times and various other video game accouterments) and a nice ass. At lunch she would wait for this 4/10 face 6'4 guy who I can only presume is her boyfriend which only reaffirms my belief that tallcels are fucking volcels. I could only look on with envy. Anyway, I can't be sure, but I think she tried to initiate conversation with me on one occasion but I was too autistic to read the signals and retained my stone-faced serial killer facial expression which probably scared her away. God fucking damnit I wish I didn't reduce to an emotionless zombie whenever I'm around a large group of people. Around the few friends I have I'm usually the one making jokes/diffusing tense situations but around large groups of people I completely fail at conveying any hint of a personality. I'm not trying to worship her or anything as I constantly reminded myself she's probably a whore like most women but I just wish I wasn't so fucking autistic and ugly. Just fuck my life.
