Deleted member 5089
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This is one immense regret I have. I'm 28 now. I was so high-inhibited and brainwashed by my paranoid and reclusive mother that I never got to experience hanging out with friends and doing drugs or drinking like most people do. I had only one friend back then outside of school, and he sometimes offered me with smoke or drink but I always rejected because I was on some straight edge trip back then and also fearful because my moms brother was a drunk and she instilled this paranoid fear in me. Even later, in my late teens and early 20s, I rejected drugs and alcohol. It was only later in life, when I became nihilist and blackpilled about the world that I started drinking on my own, but it was never the same. Now I feel sad and suicidal when I read on forums about people that were my age describing their experiences with friends, being high and drunk, all those happy memories. It just hurts me, I will never again have the opportunity to be a carefree, drugged youth roaming the streets.