i had one too many drinks on saturday night and was roaming around the city centre of birmingham. around me were all happy couples. it was not even just chads, i saw so many sub 5 men with sub 5 foids holding hands and kissing in public and being romantic. i went to a corner shop, got a 70cl jack daniels and drank it to its entirety.
about an hour i passed by a church and upon seeing it i was filled with rage. i have been a good christian all my life and yet i have been rewarded with loneliness, friendlessness and inceldom. i started screaming at the church saying "fuck you jesus" "heed my words i know you are not all good if you were all good you will not be punishing good christians like myself and many others", eventually i started screaming "i am going to kill myself, fight my way through hell and make you answer for being a terrible god" etc, it was at this point my memory started to fade.
next think i remember i was on the floor lying down in my own vomit with 2 black guys trying to help me up saying, you're having a rough night lets get you home. and then cut to black again , and i wake up in some guys sofa in the morning after. he asked me for some cash for helping me and letting me stay over. and i was like man if you wanna kill me go for it, at this point i dont care, i just dont have the balls to suicide.
i was still drunk when i woke up and started crying to him about how i am full of love to give but everybody fucking hates me and that i am not deserving of it. eventually he felt bad for me and stopped to demand cash and just asked me to leave.
i am so fucking embarassed and after getting home i just smoked all the weed i had at the house and passed out. none of this would have happened if i had a girlfriend
about an hour i passed by a church and upon seeing it i was filled with rage. i have been a good christian all my life and yet i have been rewarded with loneliness, friendlessness and inceldom. i started screaming at the church saying "fuck you jesus" "heed my words i know you are not all good if you were all good you will not be punishing good christians like myself and many others", eventually i started screaming "i am going to kill myself, fight my way through hell and make you answer for being a terrible god" etc, it was at this point my memory started to fade.
next think i remember i was on the floor lying down in my own vomit with 2 black guys trying to help me up saying, you're having a rough night lets get you home. and then cut to black again , and i wake up in some guys sofa in the morning after. he asked me for some cash for helping me and letting me stay over. and i was like man if you wanna kill me go for it, at this point i dont care, i just dont have the balls to suicide.
i was still drunk when i woke up and started crying to him about how i am full of love to give but everybody fucking hates me and that i am not deserving of it. eventually he felt bad for me and stopped to demand cash and just asked me to leave.
i am so fucking embarassed and after getting home i just smoked all the weed i had at the house and passed out. none of this would have happened if i had a girlfriend
