It just explains so much, No matter what I did or how I acted, I was always the loser, whenever I was in friend groups I was always that guy that the rest made fun of and ignored. They had group chats and talked all the time.
From 1st grade and up I have ALWAYS been at the bottom of every social hierarchy, I’ve taken multiple approaches to try and be liked. At one point I had even gotten really expensive and nice clothes and style mogged everyone in 9th grade.
Still was an outcast while there were other ugly guys who dressed like bums but still had friends and girlfriends. It pissed me off so damn much I wanted to kill them all with a screwdriver.
It’s like people can detect your autism as soon as they see you, they may not know what’s up with you but they know something is not right.
Even guys who were even uglier than I am and just as short, some cases even shorter were still able to have friends and get girlfriends in school. Those guys should’ve been rotting like I was. They should’ve been wearing Superman pajamas and eating hot pockets in their bedroom while watching anime alone just like how I was.
I can’t help but wonder if it was because they were NT and I’m not, on top of the thugmaxxing they were doing. It still doesn’t change the fact that all women instinctively only truly desire chad, but they still got something while I rotted. Even the ugly darkskin monkeys.
From 1st grade and up I have ALWAYS been at the bottom of every social hierarchy, I’ve taken multiple approaches to try and be liked. At one point I had even gotten really expensive and nice clothes and style mogged everyone in 9th grade.
Still was an outcast while there were other ugly guys who dressed like bums but still had friends and girlfriends. It pissed me off so damn much I wanted to kill them all with a screwdriver.
It’s like people can detect your autism as soon as they see you, they may not know what’s up with you but they know something is not right.
Even guys who were even uglier than I am and just as short, some cases even shorter were still able to have friends and get girlfriends in school. Those guys should’ve been rotting like I was. They should’ve been wearing Superman pajamas and eating hot pockets in their bedroom while watching anime alone just like how I was.
I can’t help but wonder if it was because they were NT and I’m not, on top of the thugmaxxing they were doing. It still doesn’t change the fact that all women instinctively only truly desire chad, but they still got something while I rotted. Even the ugly darkskin monkeys.
