Since i started elementary school 4-5 years old i remember girls feeling gross whenever the rumor spread i ever liked someone, I remember one of them telling me "¿Why cant you just like someone else?" while trhowing away a gift i bought her, I remember coming home crying because I got nothing for Valentine's day for every year up to the end of High-school, the only difference was that after middle school i stopped going to school that day, I remember girls talking to me just to get closer to my friends and then ghosting me, every girl I liked either made fun of me behind my back or used me for money without getting even a hug back, or bullied me, a girl on my class used to hit my head and pull my hair while calling me names, im a ltn/mtn and never been in a close friendship with a girl, my face combined with my diagnosis of complex PTSD, deppresion and anxiety just makes things worse, I stopped trying to get into relationships for a long time before i finally realized i was an incel, I remember seeing blue-pilled sloptubers talking about how crazy and dangerous incels were before realizing i had every single trait they had, It truly never started, I never even had a chance at life or love.
