I've been looking at the whole Chris Watts situation and what the sick fucker did to his wife and kids (the kids especially tbh) and it makes me realise how hard it truly is for one to kill themselves.
What I mean is, I would never do something like what he did in my wildest dreams but if I somehow ever did or if I even caused the death of a child by accident I would like to think that THAT would be the point where I would end my life straight away.
Yes he is a sick bastard but I also think - imagine the shock, horror, guilt, worry etc he must've been feeling, firstly straight after he'd done it and then even more so after the cops were closing in and he knew it was a matter of time before he was caught. And yet he never ended it even during all that.
It makes me think what chance have I got of building up the courage to end it when someone in that position doesn't? I've had 34 years of loneliness and agony but is that as bad as what he must've been feeling?
What I mean is, I would never do something like what he did in my wildest dreams but if I somehow ever did or if I even caused the death of a child by accident I would like to think that THAT would be the point where I would end my life straight away.
Yes he is a sick bastard but I also think - imagine the shock, horror, guilt, worry etc he must've been feeling, firstly straight after he'd done it and then even more so after the cops were closing in and he knew it was a matter of time before he was caught. And yet he never ended it even during all that.
It makes me think what chance have I got of building up the courage to end it when someone in that position doesn't? I've had 34 years of loneliness and agony but is that as bad as what he must've been feeling?
