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TheGrayWolf
At heart, I am panda-bear| 5'4"| 1/10 face&head
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Yesterday I told myself I'll start working out regularly (at home ofc) and eat more fruit and vegetables, and less junk food, to "improve my looks". I did a few strength exercises, feeling good. Deep down I knew it doesn't work but it felt good. I don't know why I have those whims, but likely, it's my brain coping. I
Then I go outside, like today to a store, where almost everyone gave me a strange prolonged look or stare, or nudges the other person pointing in my direction (this all has been happening for minimum 15 years now).
I look at myself in the mirror – a very strange head/skull with abnormal individual features and proportions, objectively deformed and extremely asymmetric face, looks back at me (with better asymmetry I'd still look extremely strange — and surgery isn't possible for me, for many reasons, I checked with many doctors; mostly because of how my skull is structured).
And no, I won't ever act out, or say anything – it has occurred that I gave someone the finger and maybe next time I'll tell them, can I help you!? I don't want to make a freaking scene. I'm just sad and venting.
Then I go outside, like today to a store, where almost everyone gave me a strange prolonged look or stare, or nudges the other person pointing in my direction (this all has been happening for minimum 15 years now).
I look at myself in the mirror – a very strange head/skull with abnormal individual features and proportions, objectively deformed and extremely asymmetric face, looks back at me (with better asymmetry I'd still look extremely strange — and surgery isn't possible for me, for many reasons, I checked with many doctors; mostly because of how my skull is structured).
And no, I won't ever act out, or say anything – it has occurred that I gave someone the finger and maybe next time I'll tell them, can I help you!? I don't want to make a freaking scene. I'm just sad and venting.
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