metabuxx
Infernal Archon
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I'm back from my uni for a couple of days. And yesterday my mom's friend was over at my house and while they were talking I overheard her saying "He is fine. He is just going through the ugly stage of his life. I don't tell him that though."
I always knew that my mom doesn't loves me as much as she loves my sister owing to my ugliness and subhuman genes. So much for thinking that a woman can actually love a man for something other than his looks. I can accept the blackpill, I can accept the dogpill, I can even accept the fact that I failed as a human at birth and there is no hope left. But its hard to accept that my own mother thinks that I'm an ugly subhuman.
"You are not entitled to a woman's love, sweaty". Fine fuck other women. Right now I don't fucking care if they like me or not. But every person in this world is at least entitled to his parent's love. And nothing which a bluepiller can ever say which can convince me otherwise on this.
I'm not sure whether she was talking about my ugly situation where I lock myself in my dorm room for days, not call her and get bad grades OR she was actually referring to my looks. I want to ask her about it, but I'm afraid that she might accept that she hates me because of my ugliness. Or that she never wanted to raise a son this ugly and someone who is a complete failure.
Chances are that she will never accept that she hates me because I'm far more uglier than her friends children so I don't really see the point in confronting her. This is eating me from the inside and out. I can't live like this, its too difficult to cope with.
I always knew that my mom doesn't loves me as much as she loves my sister owing to my ugliness and subhuman genes. So much for thinking that a woman can actually love a man for something other than his looks. I can accept the blackpill, I can accept the dogpill, I can even accept the fact that I failed as a human at birth and there is no hope left. But its hard to accept that my own mother thinks that I'm an ugly subhuman.
"You are not entitled to a woman's love, sweaty". Fine fuck other women. Right now I don't fucking care if they like me or not. But every person in this world is at least entitled to his parent's love. And nothing which a bluepiller can ever say which can convince me otherwise on this.
I'm not sure whether she was talking about my ugly situation where I lock myself in my dorm room for days, not call her and get bad grades OR she was actually referring to my looks. I want to ask her about it, but I'm afraid that she might accept that she hates me because of my ugliness. Or that she never wanted to raise a son this ugly and someone who is a complete failure.
Chances are that she will never accept that she hates me because I'm far more uglier than her friends children so I don't really see the point in confronting her. This is eating me from the inside and out. I can't live like this, its too difficult to cope with.