I am now a 27 year old, and I hate being 27. You know, I don't think i'd hate it if i experienced my teens/early-mid 20s. I can't believe in just 3 years i'll be 30, and that is horrifying. I don't have much going on in my life right now. I'm NEET and trying to find a job for a year now. It's hard finding one, and I only managed to get a temp a month ago briefly and then it ended after like two weeks. I don't really much interest in anything anymore, and anything modern tends to bore me. I have a strong psychological preference for familiarity as an autistic guy, and I don't tend to become accustomed to anything modern until it finally becomes at least a few years old, and interestingly, even shit from 10 years ago can still seem futuristic to me, but not as much as it did back then. What happened to when i was a child and i didn't have a preference for familiarity? I adapted to modern trends and society in the 2000s decade. I really miss the 2000s. Shit today and in the 2010s (except the very early 2010s) is so futuristic that even 2000 seems more modern to me, and i was only a toddler.
i fantasize a lot about experiencing my teens/early 20s as a neurotypical chad. I fantasize about the following:
*Having sex with older women while being like 17. This is a common fantasy i have a lot. This would be the PERFECT way to lose my virginity. Not starting at 27 or even 22! I could've learned A LOT about sex from women in their 20s while being 17! If I ever get attracted to a 27 year old woman and fantasize about her, I fantasize about being 17 and she's 27.
*Going to university right after high school, and no community college first. The late 2010s sucked but it would've been enjoyable for me if I was a normie and didn't have a boring ass life that period of life and avoided politics. Trump's becoming president again soon though. I should've had a girlfriend, bar hopping or clubbing, raving, having a social circle of friends, and having things to do with them even on spring break or the summer, etc. I honestly wish i picked a better major, but I have learning disabilities and autism and it's hard to handle shit like Econ or something. If I were to have zero disabilities, I could've majored in anything useful.
*Having tons of memories to look back on by now, and having so many life experiences i never could achieve. People look best in their early 20s and after that, it's all downhill. At 21, i should've been having the hottest stoned sex on the planet with a 21 year old woman in public after a music festival with tons of people watching us completely interested and entertained. Everybody my age has had that kind of sex memory, and when you get older, nobody your age wants to engage in badass sex. They just will have sex without doing something badass.
*Having a high paying job.
i fantasize a lot about experiencing my teens/early 20s as a neurotypical chad. I fantasize about the following:
*Having sex with older women while being like 17. This is a common fantasy i have a lot. This would be the PERFECT way to lose my virginity. Not starting at 27 or even 22! I could've learned A LOT about sex from women in their 20s while being 17! If I ever get attracted to a 27 year old woman and fantasize about her, I fantasize about being 17 and she's 27.
*Going to university right after high school, and no community college first. The late 2010s sucked but it would've been enjoyable for me if I was a normie and didn't have a boring ass life that period of life and avoided politics. Trump's becoming president again soon though. I should've had a girlfriend, bar hopping or clubbing, raving, having a social circle of friends, and having things to do with them even on spring break or the summer, etc. I honestly wish i picked a better major, but I have learning disabilities and autism and it's hard to handle shit like Econ or something. If I were to have zero disabilities, I could've majored in anything useful.
*Having tons of memories to look back on by now, and having so many life experiences i never could achieve. People look best in their early 20s and after that, it's all downhill. At 21, i should've been having the hottest stoned sex on the planet with a 21 year old woman in public after a music festival with tons of people watching us completely interested and entertained. Everybody my age has had that kind of sex memory, and when you get older, nobody your age wants to engage in badass sex. They just will have sex without doing something badass.
*Having a high paying job.
