It's Over I Often Fantasize about killing myself Daily, with a self inflicted gunshot to the Head

[JustanotherKanga]

I might not rant about this online often, but that doesn´t mean my mind is at peace and/or quiet.
Thoughts about my future run through my mind 24/7, and it doesn´t look too bright for me when it comes to dating, social circles and friends.
I am so Non-NT and socially inept, that ascending for me is very unlikely and I´ll probably die as a virgin.
And even if I do manage to ascend, the woman in question will just be another disloyal hypergamous whore who´ll leave and cheat on me,
as soon as she finds a better option.

So I often ask myself off:
What´s the point of all this? Going to work daily, working out, trying to reach financial freedom just do do what?
Enjoy the income all by myself, staying in my apartment all by myself like a comlete moron?

So yea, I often fantasize about killing myself in the most efficient / painless way possible.
Cause I doubt that I´ll reach my early or mid 30s, living an empty life like this

 

[FuckNoNutNovember]

I literally had a dream of roping a couple days ago

 

[JustanotherKanga]

I literally had a dream of roping a couple days ago

Roping seems painfull

 

[joocel52]

same man, there doesnt go by an hour of the day where i dont fantasize about suicuide

 

[light]

I literally had a dream of roping a couple days ago

 

[JustanotherKanga]

same man, there doesnt go by an hour of the day where i dont fantasize about suicuide

Those thoughts start to creep up when im home again, usually during the evening

 

[joocel52]

I literally had a dream of roping a couple days ago

had something similar too. i was jumping from a building and crying, there was a fmaily member and i said its okay, theres nothing to talk about.. something like that. woke up scared

 

[FuckNoNutNovember]

Roping seems painfull

If your state isnt cucked you can buy a gun at 18, unfortunately I have to wait a few months before I can get a gun because CA laws require me to be 21

 

[SubhumanGamer]

that was my power Fantasy while i was a wagie. I would just imagine coming home from an awful day at work and just escape it all, all thanks to a bullet

 

[joocel52]

Those thoughts start to creep up when im home again, usually during the evening

whenever im in an interaction with another person i dont think about it as much, but when im alone its there

 

[JustanotherKanga]

that was my power Fantasy while i was a wagie. I would just imagine coming home from an awful day at work and just escape it all, all thanks to a bullet

So you are NEET now?

 

[SubhumanGamer]

So you are NEET now?

Yup, still wanna die 24/7 but not as badly as when I was waging

 

[JustanotherKanga]

whenever im in an interaction with another person i dont think about it as much, but when im alone its there

That´s why friends are key, but

1. I am really non NT, dont really know how to fit in and the modern terms/words being used by my peers

2. I dont believe in friends, most of them only want to be your friend if they can get something out of you,
exploit you in one way or another.
When I was 16, my old ´friends´ used me for my money and spent 200 dollars in one day for a trip to the
amusement park

 

[joocel52]

That´s why friends are key, but

1. I am really non NT, dont really know how to fit in and the modern terms/words being used by my peers

2. I dont believe in friends, most of them only want to be your friend if they can get something out of you,
exploit you in one way or another.
When I was 16, my old ´friends´ used me for my money and spent 200 dollars in one day for a trip to the
amusement park

the clue is finding the exceptional to be your friends. i have 2 friends basically, one is a very odd normie who has an obsession with history, so i am basically the only one he can talk to about it. the other is a 26 year old manchild. boith have nothing of economic value to exploit from me.

 

[Soystein]

same man, there doesnt go by an hour of the day where i dont fantasize about suicuide

 

[TheJester]

Get help.

 

[JustanotherKanga]

Get help.

Beneficial advice, haven´t heard that before

 

[coping_manlet]

Please shoot a few chads too before you go out brocel. Help strip the foids of their opportunity to fuck chads

 

[MassEffectKoala]

I literally had a dream of roping a couple days ago

i had rope dream to at a recent time

 

[TheJester]

Beneficial advice, haven´t heard that before

Its not about hearing it, its about doing it. And how many times did you do it?

 

[Apokalypse]

is suicide a sin? i don't want to go to hell

 

[CEO of Simps]

I literally had a dream of spreading the whitepill a couple days ago

 

[charlieQ009]

Save the ammo for the ones needing it

 

[TheHungariancel]

The thought of killing myself crosses my mind at least once a day, but honestly, suicide is scary as fuck. I’m not religious so I don’t believe that “something is waiting for me on the other side”, but I’d need to be really down to actually commit it.

Worst part of all is that I wouldn’t even call myself depressed, it’s just seems pointless existing as an incel after a certain age.

 

[JustanotherKanga]

Its not about hearing it, its about doing it. And how many times did you do it?

Not a single time.
Cause I don't believe in seeking help,