Today I realized I never had a social life. When I was attending school the other students would never want to talk to me. These same people told me to TALK MORE. I would try approaching random groups of kids just to either get told to "fuck off" or they'd ignore my existence. At the same time I would see my older brother 6'3 athletic,good looking and he had no problem talking to the same people I tried fitting in with since 6th grade. I use to think there was something wrong with me because none of the people on my bus would talk to me but would easily strike a conversation with my older brother.
I've never called,text, or went over to a friends house. I didn't have any connections with people. He would get invited to parties,random hookups with bw,free stuff from girls and friends he had while I got picked on,rotting alone at home and humiliated for just nearly existing. Once I went out with my older brother and his friend to a nearby Carnival for a hookup because it was going to be a 3some. Because of my horrible past experiences with girls,I already knew the outcome but I came anyways because I was forced to "get out the house"
Once me and my brother and his friend approached the the two black women
She was taller than me too. She then looked me in my eyes and said. "Your ugly"
She wasn't looking at my brother or his friend. It was me she was talking too.
Standing still frozen,I was so shocked. I felt less than a man. My whole dignity was gone,like my soul had left my body. Then and there I knew I'd be a kiss less virgin for life. My body,face,height was the problem not my personality. Everything horrible experience I had with girls or with making friends was because of how I looked.
I've never called,text, or went over to a friends house. I didn't have any connections with people. He would get invited to parties,random hookups with bw,free stuff from girls and friends he had while I got picked on,rotting alone at home and humiliated for just nearly existing. Once I went out with my older brother and his friend to a nearby Carnival for a hookup because it was going to be a 3some. Because of my horrible past experiences with girls,I already knew the outcome but I came anyways because I was forced to "get out the house"
Once me and my brother and his friend approached the the two black women
She was taller than me too. She then looked me in my eyes and said. "Your ugly"
She wasn't looking at my brother or his friend. It was me she was talking too.
Standing still frozen,I was so shocked. I felt less than a man. My whole dignity was gone,like my soul had left my body. Then and there I knew I'd be a kiss less virgin for life. My body,face,height was the problem not my personality. Everything horrible experience I had with girls or with making friends was because of how I looked.
