I already made the final post on it (numerous, I have to admit), but I keep getting new notifications so I respond to them. They tell me to "move on", when I did "move on", I just reply to notifications. The reason I put move on in brackets is because it's like if your family got killed in a Car accident. You can "move on", and continue living life, but your life won't be the same.
Are you bluepilled? Are you redpilled? If not, you can't expect those methodologies that has been proven not to work to suddenly work. Because I'm ugly, autistic, short, and the lolcow of a viral video, I can no longer live a normal life, and to pretend, would be a delusion. I view adaptation as better than delusion, because you don't need delusion when it's a fact that it's theoretically possible to ascend as an incel. If something is objectively possible, then it's not delusional to think that it could happen, when it literally could happen. A different method just has to be used.
It's literally normies.is. The bluepill doesn't work, why are you telling me "Just focus on your education. Stop questioning things, try to befriend normies." That's an old script that won't work. How is it useless or schizo to think about the optimal path to move forwards when I basically fucked up my life on a grand level where I get told to "Go ER, it's over for you" 5 times a day? I'll never rope and I'll never go ER.
My plan is quite simple. "I've moved on" as in I won't make any more threads nor complain about the situation I'm in but I adapt by using a system different to the redpill and bluepill. I avoid the public irl, I don't integrate with normies, I skip every single University event, party, club, and I don't go down the normal path. In the real life public, I'll be undercover. My brother's graduation, skip it. Christmas party, not going. No one will be able to find me in real life and I plan to be undercover from the real life public for the rest of my life, that's just the consequence of the call.
But I'm not going to rot like a faggot and maybe I should take a few months leave from the forum because I technically am rotting by wasting time here. "You're edgy." Of course, it's better to be overkill in edginess, then to be a faggot twerp humilation. If I was more edgy, more serious, didn't smile at all, then the call would have been different to the one where I just accept being a joke, and do the smirks from nervousness. I would just rather never smile again, then accidently smirk and be the butt of the joke. I've stopped making jokes around 2 weeks ago. I'll avoid the public irl to grow the "Dark Virtue" (now I call it "Incel Ascension") movement online, that's what I mean by "hidden in the public, present online." I want to remove happiness as a concept because it's cope. The only 2 things I want to do are do the work needed (work a job, study, gym, etc), and look at morbid content (suicides, gore, isis, cartels) every single day. Why? To "miserymax." I want to turn into a sociopath. I want to legitimately never smile, laugh, and be so sociopathic that I'm devoid of all positive emotions and desensitized to the point where I could see a man's exposed internal organs and not give a fuck. When I'm not doing the work I have to do, as a break, I'll read articles about people commiting suicide, look at mass shooting aftermaths, because I need to become sociopathic, and so devoid of empathy and rage filled, that my personality warps so I kill the faggot version of myself on the Fitxfearless video. That's what I consider moving on. Not cosplaying as a normie when the bluepill is objectively false, but hiding from the irl public, working on the goals I had and being a completely different person.
Why don't I just contact youtube to take down the videos. He has a legal disclaimer that it's his property, and it's been reposted on Instagram, Tiktok, even if I wanted to have the videos wiped from the internet, I can't because it's multi platformed. I just have to accept it will always be out there just as the pornstar has to accept her nudes will always be surfaced around the internet. Why don't you just forget all of this and be normal? Because cosplaying as a normie won't do shit if you're a truecel. I wish the blackpill wasn't true, but the blackpill is true. Why don't you just hide in public and online? Because that would be humiliation into obscurity, and I refuse to have the Fitxfearless video be the only online representation of me. I don't want to die seen as a joke.
The problem is I think a lot without doing anything. So I'll leave the forum until at least until 2025 to follow through with my plans. I'm not larping. Today is Halloween during reading week. All I did today was the volunteering my Mom forced me to do, I studied , applied for jobs on indeed and looked at some gore. I didn't go to any parties, I unfollowed all of my old classmates on Instagram, I'm deadass. I have serious intention to do the things I said I was going to do. "Hidden in real life, present online." Nothing will stop me from continuing to post online, because I already did it, I can't stop now.
My nonNT mind changes minds too much, I'm larping if I come back before 2025. Any mentally ill ugly 17 year old already bullied male with a dysfunctional family who was texting the suicide hotline literally days before would have killed themselves if they had to go through the public humilation of their family and classmates seeing them at their most pathetic and humiliating state, but I didn't which shows I'm "special" in some way. And I know it's out there forever, and no one will ever take me seriously because they'll only view me as a humilation, but fuck it. There's no point in living without doing what you want. I genuinely mean see you next year. If I come back before 2025, the rule is I have to kill myself.
Are you bluepilled? Are you redpilled? If not, you can't expect those methodologies that has been proven not to work to suddenly work. Because I'm ugly, autistic, short, and the lolcow of a viral video, I can no longer live a normal life, and to pretend, would be a delusion. I view adaptation as better than delusion, because you don't need delusion when it's a fact that it's theoretically possible to ascend as an incel. If something is objectively possible, then it's not delusional to think that it could happen, when it literally could happen. A different method just has to be used.
It's literally normies.is. The bluepill doesn't work, why are you telling me "Just focus on your education. Stop questioning things, try to befriend normies." That's an old script that won't work. How is it useless or schizo to think about the optimal path to move forwards when I basically fucked up my life on a grand level where I get told to "Go ER, it's over for you" 5 times a day? I'll never rope and I'll never go ER.
My plan is quite simple. "I've moved on" as in I won't make any more threads nor complain about the situation I'm in but I adapt by using a system different to the redpill and bluepill. I avoid the public irl, I don't integrate with normies, I skip every single University event, party, club, and I don't go down the normal path. In the real life public, I'll be undercover. My brother's graduation, skip it. Christmas party, not going. No one will be able to find me in real life and I plan to be undercover from the real life public for the rest of my life, that's just the consequence of the call.
But I'm not going to rot like a faggot and maybe I should take a few months leave from the forum because I technically am rotting by wasting time here. "You're edgy." Of course, it's better to be overkill in edginess, then to be a faggot twerp humilation. If I was more edgy, more serious, didn't smile at all, then the call would have been different to the one where I just accept being a joke, and do the smirks from nervousness. I would just rather never smile again, then accidently smirk and be the butt of the joke. I've stopped making jokes around 2 weeks ago. I'll avoid the public irl to grow the "Dark Virtue" (now I call it "Incel Ascension") movement online, that's what I mean by "hidden in the public, present online." I want to remove happiness as a concept because it's cope. The only 2 things I want to do are do the work needed (work a job, study, gym, etc), and look at morbid content (suicides, gore, isis, cartels) every single day. Why? To "miserymax." I want to turn into a sociopath. I want to legitimately never smile, laugh, and be so sociopathic that I'm devoid of all positive emotions and desensitized to the point where I could see a man's exposed internal organs and not give a fuck. When I'm not doing the work I have to do, as a break, I'll read articles about people commiting suicide, look at mass shooting aftermaths, because I need to become sociopathic, and so devoid of empathy and rage filled, that my personality warps so I kill the faggot version of myself on the Fitxfearless video. That's what I consider moving on. Not cosplaying as a normie when the bluepill is objectively false, but hiding from the irl public, working on the goals I had and being a completely different person.
Why don't I just contact youtube to take down the videos. He has a legal disclaimer that it's his property, and it's been reposted on Instagram, Tiktok, even if I wanted to have the videos wiped from the internet, I can't because it's multi platformed. I just have to accept it will always be out there just as the pornstar has to accept her nudes will always be surfaced around the internet. Why don't you just forget all of this and be normal? Because cosplaying as a normie won't do shit if you're a truecel. I wish the blackpill wasn't true, but the blackpill is true. Why don't you just hide in public and online? Because that would be humiliation into obscurity, and I refuse to have the Fitxfearless video be the only online representation of me. I don't want to die seen as a joke.
The problem is I think a lot without doing anything. So I'll leave the forum until at least until 2025 to follow through with my plans. I'm not larping. Today is Halloween during reading week. All I did today was the volunteering my Mom forced me to do, I studied , applied for jobs on indeed and looked at some gore. I didn't go to any parties, I unfollowed all of my old classmates on Instagram, I'm deadass. I have serious intention to do the things I said I was going to do. "Hidden in real life, present online." Nothing will stop me from continuing to post online, because I already did it, I can't stop now.
My nonNT mind changes minds too much, I'm larping if I come back before 2025. Any mentally ill ugly 17 year old already bullied male with a dysfunctional family who was texting the suicide hotline literally days before would have killed themselves if they had to go through the public humilation of their family and classmates seeing them at their most pathetic and humiliating state, but I didn't which shows I'm "special" in some way. And I know it's out there forever, and no one will ever take me seriously because they'll only view me as a humilation, but fuck it. There's no point in living without doing what you want. I genuinely mean see you next year. If I come back before 2025, the rule is I have to kill myself.
