it was such a potent cope. ever since i turned 12 i have always longed for a relationship but i hid those feelings deep down and pretended like im aromantic/asexual. its only now with a recent oneitis i confronted those feelings and realise how i should have spent all those teen years looks/NTmaxxing and how i missed out. things will never be the same. and no matter how hard i try i cannot just bury my head in the sand.
