SuicideFuel I miss my copes being fully effective

[ionlycopenow]

I used to listen to so much music and it made me feel very good. I used to enjoy movies and anime so much. Now these do close to nothing. Even alcohol and drugs do close to nothing now. This is very sad.

 

[Deleted member 16624]

That's just how the brain works.Your enjoyment of someting diminishes over time.Its sad.

 

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

Ever since i realized im just a pathetic consumer who is trying to distract himself from the ugly truth , my copes have become a double edged sword .

 

[ionlycopenow]

Ever since i realized im just a pathetic consumer who is trying to distract himself from the ugly truth , my copes have become a double edged sword .

I've known it from the start. That's all coping is. It's either that or rope so there is no need to hate yourself for it. Just accept it.

 

[grondilu]

I used to enjoy movies and anime so much

Not necessarily your fault. Audiovisual entertainment in the twenty-first century has been cucked AF so far.

 

[ionlycopenow]

Not necessarily your fault. Audiovisual entertainment in the twenty-first century has been cucked AF so far.

Before joker and the lighthouse, I hadn't been in the theaters for a near half decade. These new movies anf shows are so alienating and garbage.

 

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

I've known it from the start. That's all coping is. It's either that or rope so there is no need to hate yourself for it. Just accept it.

I mean , back then , listening to Music or watching a good movie alsways gave me a dopamine rush and made me happy for a short time ,
but lile with every drug i have build up a tolerance for this instant hormonal gratification which just keeps on getting higher and higher .
Nowadays i almost instantly feel ashamed when i start coping with shit like that , cause i know that whenyou listen to music or watch a movie or something luke that , you are essentially cucking yourself cause you kind of surrender and make yourself part of the Reality of someone else instead of imagining and building a new reality for yourself by your own effort .
In other words , the only acceptable and honorable way of coping for me is distracting myself with Thing from MY imagination , like making Music , wwiting something or just daydreaming .
Cause then i dont feel shame or regret and i dont feel like a cuck afterwards .
When i am just a passive consumer of something that someone else has created , i often feel the same shame i feel after masturbating .

 

[zangano1]

Yes i'm losing all my copes now, I just lay in bed and rot

 

[ionlycopenow]

I mean , back then , listening to Music or watching a good movie alsways gave me a dopamine rush and made me happy for a short time ,
but lile with every drug i have build up a tolerance for this instant hormonal gratification which just keeps on getting higher and higher .
Nowadays i almost instantly feel ashamed when i start coping with shit like that , cause i know that whenyou listen to music or watch a movie or something luke that , you are essentially cucking yourself cause you kind of surrender and make yourself part of the Reality of someone else instead of imagining and building a new reality for yourself by your own effort .
In other words , the only acceptable and honorable way of coping for me is distracting myself with Thing from MY imagination , like making Music , wwiting something or just daydreaming .
Cause then i dont feel shame or regret and i dont feel like a cuck afterwards .
When i am just a passive consumer of something that someone else has created , i often feel the same shame i feel after masturbating .

I used to draw alot but I stopped. I had no energy or drive to bother. not only that but other "artists" ostracized me too and it was demotivating At best I can daydream and fantasize because that doesn't take any energy.

Coping is coping. One isnt superior or lesser to another.

 

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

I used to draw alot but I stopped. I had no energy or drive to bother.

Its hard to have discipline when you are engulfed by Nihilism and nobody gives you even an ounce of attention or affection .
You need some kind of Fuel for your Willpower and our Tanks are always empty .

 

[ionlycopenow]

Its hard to have discipline when you are engulfed by Nihilism and nobody gives you even an ounce of attention or affection .
You need some kind of Fuel for your Willpower and our Tanks are always empty .

Yes.

I don't think coping with media is cucked. It's fictional. The creators are coping too. It's no where near as bad as say, worshiping Tyrone's and chads in sports as a cope.

 

[Alone75]

Getting older and becoming fully aware my copes are "copes" has ensured nothing will ever work again.

 

[ionlycopenow]

Getting older and becoming fully aware my copes are "copes" has ensured nothing will ever work again.

Becoming aware is a curse and a blight.