I travel to university by bus. It's an about 25 minute trip.
I see myself as a 1-3 in looks depending on my mood. I have never met or seen a man uglier than me. Even on here, on the weekly "do you mog x" -threads they are
always better than me in terms of looks. I have also never met a girl my age I see as a 3 or below. I honestly thought those girls don't exist in real life, only on the internet.
Recently the bus was full, which is not unusual. A girl sits on the chair opposite to me. Now I thinlk you must now that the bus is usually not filled with other students, mostly older working class people. The other students mostly live closer to the university but I chose an apartment more far off because of the cheaper rent. I only tell you this because I don't want you to think that the girl chose to sit opposite to me.
This girl is very ugly. Her eyes are squinty, like lines in her head. She's very fat and every part of her body is flabby. Her shirt is too short under herleather jacket. When she streches her shirt reveals her gut that looks impressive even next to the rather impressive beer bellies of men that are so common around here. She reminds me of a pig or a dog. She gives off a vibe similar to those roller derby lesbians.
I feel like I need to break the silence.
We talk for a bit. She's a bit low IQ, She*s into video games, all the normie shit: Sniper Elite seems to be her favorite. I try to talk to her about books only to find out she has not read a book after the seventh grade of school.
Later that day I come to the stark realisation: this girl was my looksmatch and I felt disgusted by her. I would probably have difficulties getting an erection with her. I just can't get the image of all that flab out of my head. Before I had always been in this (bluepilled) belief that I would simply find my looksmatch and maybe I could be happy with her. Now I know this is not the case. I could not be happy with that lardbarrel. Could I show her to my friends and family and be proud? Is this what I'm working for?
This experience has also crystalized my own image in my mind. Is this how disgusted foids are about me. The fact I breathe the same air must feel like an insult to their holy being and my seminal fluid is like poison to them.
This realisation is painful, one cope less in my life.
You may call me volcel (inb4 volcel if you wouldn't) but I just want to be honest with you. I don't honestly think that I would be happy with my looksmatch.
I see myself as a 1-3 in looks depending on my mood. I have never met or seen a man uglier than me. Even on here, on the weekly "do you mog x" -threads they are
always better than me in terms of looks. I have also never met a girl my age I see as a 3 or below. I honestly thought those girls don't exist in real life, only on the internet.
Recently the bus was full, which is not unusual. A girl sits on the chair opposite to me. Now I thinlk you must now that the bus is usually not filled with other students, mostly older working class people. The other students mostly live closer to the university but I chose an apartment more far off because of the cheaper rent. I only tell you this because I don't want you to think that the girl chose to sit opposite to me.
This girl is very ugly. Her eyes are squinty, like lines in her head. She's very fat and every part of her body is flabby. Her shirt is too short under herleather jacket. When she streches her shirt reveals her gut that looks impressive even next to the rather impressive beer bellies of men that are so common around here. She reminds me of a pig or a dog. She gives off a vibe similar to those roller derby lesbians.
I feel like I need to break the silence.
We talk for a bit. She's a bit low IQ, She*s into video games, all the normie shit: Sniper Elite seems to be her favorite. I try to talk to her about books only to find out she has not read a book after the seventh grade of school.
Later that day I come to the stark realisation: this girl was my looksmatch and I felt disgusted by her. I would probably have difficulties getting an erection with her. I just can't get the image of all that flab out of my head. Before I had always been in this (bluepilled) belief that I would simply find my looksmatch and maybe I could be happy with her. Now I know this is not the case. I could not be happy with that lardbarrel. Could I show her to my friends and family and be proud? Is this what I'm working for?
This experience has also crystalized my own image in my mind. Is this how disgusted foids are about me. The fact I breathe the same air must feel like an insult to their holy being and my seminal fluid is like poison to them.
This realisation is painful, one cope less in my life.
You may call me volcel (inb4 volcel if you wouldn't) but I just want to be honest with you. I don't honestly think that I would be happy with my looksmatch.
