It's Over I lost the last bit of happiness and hope that I ever had tonight

[Ghost Rider]

I have a weird crush on a homeless woman that I see wandering sometimes where I live, she's maybe 50+ and with some kind of mental illness/maybe high as fuck every day on drugs, her clothes are torn and she never speaks, she's blonde but seems that she hasn't fixed her hair in a long time, she walks around with a bag with some of her things like old lipsticks and makeup, she's most likely crazy she roams without any direction like talking to herself but only moving her mouth without any sounds, and she randomly smiles. She never ever paid attenton to me or anyone else it seems, like she's on her own world inside her mind.
I love her smile.
My mental state is at its lowest right now, I'm so fucking done and tired of everything, I went out tonight for some food and I wanted to torture myself a little looking at the absurd amount of couples and families hanging out tonight before the dinner, all these people enjoying life and having fun.I didn't have a proper Christmas in more than twenty years.
And BOOM, there she was, roaming around the street, without any direction, talking with herself, she could barely walk she was probably very high or something.
When I say that I just wanted to run to her, hug her and kiss her I fucking mean it I would've done anything to be able to do it, as someone with nothing to lose at this point I used every bit of courage that I had and I started to go on her direction, I look like an average Joe I'm not dressed like a monster or something, is just fucking me.
Then she notices me, and her beautiful and sweet smile just vanishes. her expression did a 180° and I wasn't even close to herI was walking towards her direction with a normal face, and she crossed the street before I could be even TEN steps away from her, she was avoiding me.
Let this fucking sink in a 50ýo+ homeless crazy woman avoided me like I was a fucking monster, I thought "maybe she felt threatened despite me just walking so let's try again IM LE ALPHA SIGMA MALE SHIT THAT EVERY FUCKING REDPILLED CUCK REPEATS OVER AND OVER AGAIN AMIRITE"
She does the same thing again, and again, three times she crosses the street to avoid me, always givingme the same fucking look that every woman has given to me my whole life.
All my life I thought "HEY IM NOT DEFORMED AND I DONT HAVE ABNORMALLY HUGE FACIAL FEATURES SO I MAY BE A REGULAR SUB 5" no, it was a lie, I'm a fucking 1/10, I'm almost 20years younger than her, inmy mind I just wanted to walk a few minutes with ehr then buy her a gift for Christmas, I just wanted to hold the hand of a woman on Christmas FOR FUCKING ONCE IN MY LIFE Im fucking crying while Im typing this shit
I never fucking asked for being born, nmever fucking asked to live, more than fucking TWENTY YEARS of sheer loneliness and almost a decade of total isolation from women has costed me the abiltiy to even say hi, if I was fucking functional I would've told her "HEY WAIT I JUST WANT TO TALK" But I fucking couldn't, cutting my entire arm would've been and is easier than talking to a foid to me at this point, even if she's someone like her, that people would consider the fucking lowest of the low.
I stalked her for almost two hours, she randomyl smiles while doing some silly movements while she walks, her smile I will never have it, never, nobody wll ever fucking give me that smile, for the fucking rest of my life, let that sink in, I'm about to experience this pain for how many decades who knows, I don't have the balls to rope myself, this is hell, this is sheer torture every day 24/7. every day I open my eyes I'm dead, I'm a fucking walking corpse.
merry fucking christmas.

 

[HeinzKell]

the fuck?

 

[Darth Aries]

This is the most brutal thing I’ve ever read on here. Being rejected by a homeless woman is a next level truecel trait.

 

[chudjak]

All women are chad only whores, she wouldn't have crossed the street if you looked different. That's obvious

But what you need to realize is that you are hurting yourself by looking for these foids, their nature is inherently evil and retarded, stop giving them any attention and stop wanting them. Of course it's natural to still want love but these women just aren't offering it, find a waifu or something and you can ascend with them in incelheaven

 

[KinkyKanga]

the fuck?

 

[justuseless]

50 year old homeless crackhead is next level

 

[Left4DeadNiggerboy]

This is the most brutal thing I’ve ever read on here. Being rejected by a homeless woman is a next level truecel trait.

 

[DeliriousMerchant]

I wish I had a crush.

 

[PrototypeCel]

was it dark out?
not tryna sound normie but i also avoid everyone too at night

 

[biggestloser]

its over

 

[biggestloser]

I wish I had a crush.

same i only feel disgust

 

[Ghost Rider]

50 year old homeless crackhead is next level

and the worst part she ticks all the boxes for me, blonde, pale, old, almost anorexic, everything that I want in a woman, and I can't have her despite her being probably rejected by other homeless fucks and she's also crazy/mentally ill
I would marry her in a heartbeat and keep her at home treating her like a doll, but no, I can't even fucking have that, I'm fated to watch her never fucking pay attention to me, I'll rot in loneliness all my life

All women are chad only whores, she wouldn't have crossed the street if you looked different. That's obvious

But what you need to realize is that you are hurting yourself by looking for these foids, their nature is inherently evil and retarded, stop giving them any attention and stop wanting them. Of course it's natural to still want love but these women just aren't offering it, find a waifu or something and you can ascend with them in incelheaven

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

Jesus, easily one of the most brutal posts i've seen on almost 10 years on this community

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

Then she notices me, and her beautiful and sweet smile just vanishes. her expression did a 180° and I wasn't even close to her was walking towards her direction with a normal face, and she crossed the street before I could be even TEN steps away from her, she was avoiding me.

Holy shit. Mega fucking blackpill.

I stalked her for almost two hours, she randomyl smiles while doing some silly movements while she walks, her smile I will never have it, never, nobody wll ever fucking give me that smile, for the fucking rest of my life, let that sink in, I'm about to experience this pain for how many decades who knows, I don't have the balls to rope myself, this is hell, this is sheer torture every day 24/7. every day I open my eyes I'm dead, I'm a fucking walking corpse.
merry fucking christmas.

That's really sad, man. I really hope you're able to get over her. Any foid that treats us the way she did doesn't even deserve basic respect from us.

 

[iicc33]

I have a weird crush on a homeless woman that I see wandering sometimes where I live, she's maybe 50+ and with some kind of mental illness/maybe high as fuck every day on drugs, her clothes are torn and she never speaks, she's blonde but seems that she hasn't fixed her hair in a long time, she walks around with a bag with some of her things like old lipsticks and makeup, she's most likely crazy she roams without any direction like talking to herself but only moving her mouth without any sounds, and she randomly smiles. She never ever paid attenton to me or anyone else it seems, like she's on her own world inside her mind.
I love her smile.
My mental state is at its lowest right now, I'm so fucking done and tired of everything, I went out tonight for some food and I wanted to torture myself a little looking at the absurd amount of couples and families hanging out tonight before the dinner, all these people enjoying life and having fun.I didn't have a proper Christmas in more than twenty years.
And BOOM, there she was, roaming around the street, without any direction, talking with herself, she could barely walk she was probably very high or something.
When I say that I just wanted to run to her, hug her and kiss her I fucking mean it I would've done anything to be able to do it, as someone with nothing to lose at this point I used every bit of courage that I had and I started to go on her direction, I look like an average Joe I'm not dressed like a monster or something, is just fucking me.
Then she notices me, and her beautiful and sweet smile just vanishes. her expression did a 180° and I wasn't even close to herI was walking towards her direction with a normal face, and she crossed the street before I could be even TEN steps away from her, she was avoiding me.
Let this fucking sink in a 50ýo+ homeless crazy woman avoided me like I was a fucking monster, I thought "maybe she felt threatened despite me just walking so let's try again IM LE ALPHA SIGMA MALE SHIT THAT EVERY FUCKING REDPILLED CUCK REPEATS OVER AND OVER AGAIN AMIRITE"
She does the same thing again, and again, three times she crosses the street to avoid me, always givingme the same fucking look that every woman has given to me my whole life.
All my life I thought "HEY IM NOT DEFORMED AND I DONT HAVE ABNORMALLY HUGE FACIAL FEATURES SO I MAY BE A REGULAR SUB 5" no, it was a lie, I'm a fucking 1/10, I'm almost 20years younger than her, inmy mind I just wanted to walk a few minutes with ehr then buy her a gift for Christmas, I just wanted to hold the hand of a woman on Christmas FOR FUCKING ONCE IN MY LIFE Im fucking crying while Im typing this shit
I never fucking asked for being born, nmever fucking asked to live, more than fucking TWENTY YEARS of sheer loneliness and almost a decade of total isolation from women has costed me the abiltiy to even say hi, if I was fucking functional I would've told her "HEY WAIT I JUST WANT TO TALK" But I fucking couldn't, cutting my entire arm would've been and is easier than talking to a foid to me at this point, even if she's someone like her, that people would consider the fucking lowest of the low.
I stalked her for almost two hours, she randomyl smiles while doing some silly movements while she walks, her smile I will never have it, never, nobody wll ever fucking give me that smile, for the fucking rest of my life, let that sink in, I'm about to experience this pain for how many decades who knows, I don't have the balls to rope myself, this is hell, this is sheer torture every day 24/7. every day I open my eyes I'm dead, I'm a fucking walking corpse.
merry fucking christmas.

Its kinda fucked to think about it, first you ended up mentally and physically inferior (autism, ugly ect) at the fault of certain people, and now, all you fucking want it to feel a bit of love and this fucking happens, and none of it is your fault, theres nothing you can do also, only rot and watch others have normal relationship, something you can never have, all because of your parents if you want someone to blame, not even talking about genetics, their actions made your life shit fucked

 

[Ghost Rider]

Holy shit. Mega fucking blackpill.

That's really sad, man. I really hope you're able to get over her. Any foid that treats us the way she did doesn't even deserve basic respect from us.
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Its kinda fucked to think about it, first you ended up mentally and physically inferior (autism, ugly ect) at the fault of certain people, and now, all you fucking want it to feel a bit of love and this fucking happens, and none of it is your fault, theres nothing you can do also, only rot and watch others have normal relationship, something you can never have, all because of your parents if you want someone to blame, not even talking about genetics, their actions made your life shit fucked

We were given the worst cards possible and we're supposed to play with them when we didn't even fucking ask to play the game

 

[can't cope no more]

This is the most brutal thing I’ve ever read on here. Being rejected by a homeless woman is a next level truecel trait.