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Tenshi
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Literally every little thing I was coping on throughout my life managed to get totally destroyed by reality in the last 2 years.
All my insecurities, fears, they just came to surface and I got hit right in the face with all the blackpilling experiences I went through. I got obliterated by life.
Sure, here and there I may try to think positively and even get mad for a few days when things don't go my way, but it's just not like before. I never really thought those things were really going anywhere from the beginning. When I start things I'm already aware of these likely negative possibilities and/or outcomes: no hope, no harm.
I have no illusions at this point. The caveat of this of course is that I have no hope and no joy in life. I may laugh, but I'll never be happy. I may try, but I'll never succeed, and I know that. Living is just something I do for no reason at all at this point, as I have no dreams or goals in life.
I'm a broken human.
All my insecurities, fears, they just came to surface and I got hit right in the face with all the blackpilling experiences I went through. I got obliterated by life.
Sure, here and there I may try to think positively and even get mad for a few days when things don't go my way, but it's just not like before. I never really thought those things were really going anywhere from the beginning. When I start things I'm already aware of these likely negative possibilities and/or outcomes: no hope, no harm.
I have no illusions at this point. The caveat of this of course is that I have no hope and no joy in life. I may laugh, but I'll never be happy. I may try, but I'll never succeed, and I know that. Living is just something I do for no reason at all at this point, as I have no dreams or goals in life.
I'm a broken human.