Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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I don't know what it is. This inability to do anything. I've literally been LDARing since I was a little child, without knowing it. I'm 26 now, and I haven't actually done a single thing.
I've always had cravings to do something, the need to accomplish something or learn a skill, but I haven't. Not learning guitar, or painting, or programming. Haven't done anything that actually takes effort and actually putting in work.
Even in school or for important tests in my life. All I did was postpone everything until the last possible second and just sorta wing it. It doesn't help that it always worked out for me. Until of course that time where I became a total degenerate alcoholic and dropped out of uni and wasted all my parent's money for 2 years of rent and food in a foreign country.
Anyway, is anybody else"suffering of this" as fucking useless as me? I don't know why, but this is how I am.
I think this is the reason why I never had friends too. Since I was a kid all I did was sit in front of the PC, 100% of the time. I'd rather be alone, LDARing rather than actually put any effort into anything. I remember once some guys actually invited me out, and I refused, for no reason.
I actively avoid anything that takes even a speck of effort. What the fuck is wrong with me? This is so weird.
I've always had cravings to do something, the need to accomplish something or learn a skill, but I haven't. Not learning guitar, or painting, or programming. Haven't done anything that actually takes effort and actually putting in work.
Even in school or for important tests in my life. All I did was postpone everything until the last possible second and just sorta wing it. It doesn't help that it always worked out for me. Until of course that time where I became a total degenerate alcoholic and dropped out of uni and wasted all my parent's money for 2 years of rent and food in a foreign country.
Anyway, is anybody else
I think this is the reason why I never had friends too. Since I was a kid all I did was sit in front of the PC, 100% of the time. I'd rather be alone, LDARing rather than actually put any effort into anything. I remember once some guys actually invited me out, and I refused, for no reason.
I actively avoid anything that takes even a speck of effort. What the fuck is wrong with me? This is so weird.
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